Poison in my veins (BoyxBoy)

what does it feel like?/touching without hands

JJ•

Jack?

One silky pink petal falls to the floor.

Hello?

The second one floats oh so softly down to rest with the other.

Would you stop daydreaming for one second?

I smile to myself as the third floats down just as beautifully as the others.

Earth to Jack.

I shake my head and smile slightly,fingers pulling the soft petals off the flower I found on the  side of the road earlier when we left the hotel.

The hotel where it happened,the hotel where my bad boy slipped and gave me something I'd been wanting for so so long now.

The emotional me almost cried when we left,this room in this hotel always being something I'd remember and would get jittery thinking about.

I took pictures of the whole place,snap snap snap of every window to the ugly dead flowers in the vase cause the sentimental side of me wanted to always remember this room.

My heart starts racing as I remember everything that happened that night,2 days later and my mind hasn't stopped thinking about it.

I keep replaying it in my head,keep spinning it around my brain and thinking about how much I loved it.

Closing my eyes takes me back,back like it's still happening as I can see his sweaty sex hair and dazy colorful eyes that stare down in my soul as he touches me.

Just closing my eyes and thinking about makes me all gushy and jumbly,my fucking pulse sky rocketing and making me blush like there's no tomorrow.

Even now,sitting in the car while picking the petals off a flower,my cheeks are red and hot as I think this through.

Nova barks from beside me and rubs up against my side.

you look all happy but you're not petting me!! please pet me!!

I absentmindedly reach out and touch her furry head,happy growls that melt my heart as she curls up against my side.

My eyes stay on the pretty little flower in my hand,my mind racing.

What are you doing?

Oh nothing.

You're daydreaming again aren't you?

Another petal slips from my fingers to join the collection that lay on the floor.

Maybe.

What about?

I smile and roll my eyes to myself,feeling like such a lovesick little child it makes my stomach all in knots.

Oh...that's what you're thinking about.

I bite my lip,pull another petal and watch it float so slowly to the ground the lie with the others.