you lie beside me yet the spaces grow deeper
JG• ~2days later~
My eyes burn with the glares I'm throwing,head stinging with how hard I yanked on my hair when I first saw the scene before me.
Pulling up at the gas station my little angel practically ran inside,child running from parent as if too embarrassed to be seen with them.
mom dad stay here,don't follow just drop me off at the end of the street cause you're so embarrassing
He ran like hell itself was chasing him,not bothering to wait like always or look nervous due to leaving my side.
Quite the opposite,he ran so fast like he didn't want me follow him.
please please don't come with me,my mouth doesn't wanna speak and I don't want your shadow around me anymore
I wanted to cry ugly tears of pain and self hate at this thought,my angel not wanting me to accompany him sounds stupid I suppose but it hurt more than I can explain.
I was ready to run inside and beg on my knees for forgiveness but I didn't,being stupid and stubborn I stayed where I was and pumped gas into our car with cool black seats.
And now?
Now...I wanna rip my hair out and scream in a million different languages as I look through the window,seeing some tall guy with brown shaggy hair talking to my angel.
My blood boils insanely fast,watching as he sorta leans to my angel like he can't stand straight.
Shaggy hair is smiling down at my angel like he's in love,bursting lust covered up is what I can spy from a million miles away.
Shaggy hair smiles and I'm ready to rip him apart limb from fucking limb when my angel smiles back.
Now Jack calm down,maybe he likes him.Maybe he's enjoying the conversation and it's rude of you to ruin it.He's not thinking about you right now anyway.
My insides twist up and my palms are burning up,digging my nails in my skin hard enough it stings I try to tell myself it's no biggie.
nope nope no biggie,calm down its no biggie that some boy that's not me is standing beside the beautiful boy who's more precious than gold
nope nope nope nope nope
I watch in torture as shaggy haired boy presses closer to my angel,body almost up against body tightly closed like the way we stand when we're alone with no eyes upon us.
nope nope no biggie, don't lash out and kill him just because he's leaning against the most beautiful soul in the world who belongs to me
Jack don't worry,at least with his interest in this guy he'll be out of our hair.Maybe if we're lucky he'll leave with his guy and we'll never have to see blondie again.
I wanna slam a sledgehammer against my skull to shut my inner voice up,please please stop stop stop.
stop stop stop telling me things that hurt,spiky words digging deep inside blood vessels like crawling biting bugs that won't leave
Stupid shaggy hair boy presses even closer,bastard back the fuck up haven't you ever heard of personal space?
He's so close I could cry,my stomach in knots as shaggy haired asshole says something I guess is funny and my angel laughs.
