How Did You Get To My Life (Kellin Quinn)

(VIII) How Can I Not Remember?

Kellin's POV

I watched her go in Starbucks in a totally non-creepy way. She must be going to visit her "friend" I want to know who this person is because I think she was talking about her on Friday in choir. Anyway I contemplated with myself on weather to go in or not then I finally decided I would peak in I could do it non-chalauntly and just pretend to be getting coffee yes that is what I shall do.

I walked in but then regretted it so bad. I saw Rosa when I saw her sitting there my heart cracked and I instantly felt sick .I wanted to be invisable. She broke my heart and she is with Kailyn which makes it 100,000,000 times worse. So I just kept moving to the counter acting like I had no idea people I knew were here.

When I orderd my coffee I contemplated on weather I should stay and sit down or just walk away this took alot less time to think abou than my last genius decision t." Oh NO there is no fucking way in hell you are staying here, get your ass out of here before you fuck up your life even more." I heard my conscious say

So I darted out of there as soon as I could.

When I got out a huge releif came maybe she didn't notice me. Hopefully. I sighed and got in my car and drove home.

When I got home I just couldn't take it I went home and cut. It felt so releiving I only did 2 so that it wasn't noticable. I washed it off and dried it with a towel then threw the towel away. I heard my phone ring.Who could be calling me my brother or no one or Kailyn. I picked it up and it was Kailyn.

I said "Hi" she sighed and asked me why I was at starbucks?" I answered non-chalauntly and said "because I wanted coffee and how do you know I was there?" She sighed again and said "I was there talking to my old friend and you walked in so I just wanted to know." She said the last part bitterly I wonder if Rosa told her something. I said "listen I can explain " she said" fine I'll be at your house in 10 minutes." and hung up.

SHIT.

Kailyn's POV

When I saw Rosa's eyes widen I immediatly looked where she was staring. Kellin. Why was he here? was he following me? or was it just a coincidence? I don't know but I tried to refrain from making a scene.

I tried to return to the conversation. Rosa just looked very awkward. Did she know him?

I couldn't take it I had to know. So I asked "Rosa do you know him?" She shifted and said "yea I know him he was my umm boyfriend then he broke my heart so I never talked to him again."

I thought about it if he broke her heart he could easily break mine. Maybe if I let him in I will just hurt myself. Maybe I shouldn't fall for him.

I told them I had to go they both said bye and I exited. I called him and told him I would be at his house in 10 minutes. I started walking.

When I got to his house I slowly walked up to the door. This had to be done. I knocked on the door. He answered it and he looked really nervous. I wonder if I should even ask him if it is correct since he looked really guilty like he knew what he did I could see it in eyes.

I sat on the couch and he sat next to me. I sighed and said " So Rosa told me everything."

He looked at me and said" so you know what happened." I looked at him and almost yelled" yea if you break her heart, how do I know if we go out you won't break mine."

He looked at me weird and said" What the fuck are you talking about." I looked at him shockingly You know you broke Rosa's heart." He looked at me again questinongly and said "Hold the Fuck up She broke my heart" as a tear came out of the corner of his eye and he quickly wiped it away.

I stopped and said "What?" He looked at me in my eyes and said "She left me about a year ago with some band and left me behind with nothing left but a broken heart."

He looked at him then kissed me. His lips were just as soft as I remember. But I pushed him away and walked out.

When I got outside and started walking down the street I started thinking. He couldn't be talking about Justin's band. how did he know about this? was he working with Angela? Was he doing this to torture me? He must be doing this just so he can get to me then brake my heart. I started crying and ran inside. I closed my door locked it then indulged myself in my music.

Kellin's POV

Why did she reject me? How did she know Rosa and Angela? Why wouldn't she believe me? Why couldn't I just man up and ask her out already? Why are Rosa and Angela back.

As if on Que I heard knocking. I opened it without looking like a complete dumbass and of coarse it was Angela.

She let herself in and said "Soo...thinking about Rosa .?" I couldn't believe she actually said that I just shook my head and said " yea but only because I am wondering why you two are back, Didn't you guys do enough damage before, when you left"

Angela looked shocked and said" What are you talking about she said she still wants you, infact she wants you back. " I was in utter shock. "After what she did to me?"

"Yea that is one of the reasons we came back " she replied.

"What the Fuck" I said "Get out right now before I punch something. Besides she needs to move on I did and now I have Kailyn."

She looked at me and said " fine but when Rosa wants something she doesn't care who it affects she will try everything to get it, And so do I" and she left with that.

What the actuall fuck is that supposed to mean? I thought as I punched the wall in.

Angela's POV

I warned him but he doesn't listen I was actally trying to help him but if he wants to be a little bitch about it I will play on team Rosa.

I guess it's time to pay a visit to my old friend Kailyn

I got out my phone and called her. It took forever for her to answer. I told her I wanted to come over. She told me her address and I walked there because it wasn't that far from here.

When I got there I knocked on the door. My plan is to get close to her then stab her right in her back she won't even know what she is dealing with.I said 'Hi' then embraced her in a big hug and said

" Oh my gosh we have so much things to catch up on I am sorry that Rosa was there earlier but she had no where to go but now it can be us together again as friends."

She coughed and said "actually I need osme advise on the Kellin thing"

"Oh of coarse remember I will never leave you again" I sat on the couch next to her.

She explained eveerything that happened and then asked me what she should do. Well I thought. And came up with an answer and Damn was this the best plan yet. I told her later she should go to Kellin's house and say your sorry and tell him how you really feel that you love him.

She nodded and said okay I'm going to go at 2:30. I nodded my head and said "okay I have to go now but I will be in reach by phone anytime." And then I left.

Kailyn's POV

I got ready to go over Kellin's I hope he feels the same way I really want us to be together. I walked to his house. I knocked but there was no answer. I opened it and saw Rosa and Kellin kissing. He looked up and saw me he pushed Rosa away and said "Kailyn?"

But I could only hear from a distance since I was long gone running and crying. He still has feelings for Rosa. I don't exactly know what happened between them but obviously they like eachother so maybe I should leave them alone.They should be happy who cares that my life is falling apart and just keeps unraveling.

I got home and got my blade. I havn't used this since I was a freshmen. Whatever old things keep coming back up in my life so why not this one.

I slowly cut in my skin and could instantly feel relief. I realized how much damage I had done and quickly washed my arm off and dried it . What was I doing to myself ? This isn't me, I am completly fine without him I have been for all my life and the first week of school, well half week isn't going to change anything.

But I am depressed so I am just going to think about it and lay on my bed until I come up with a solution on my own