How Did You Get To My Life (Kellin Quinn)

(XX) Why Wasn't I Told?

Kellin's POV

I stared at the two envelopes sitting in my hand. I kept looking at Jesse then back to the things sitting in my hand.

Jesse looked really nervous and scared. I was about to say something when he started "I'm sorry"

I replied with "Did you read them?" He shook his head. I backed up into the apartment. He followed closing the door which he once was about to leave.

We sat on the couch. "Which one should I open first?" He shrugged his shoulders and said "It's your choice bro"

I took in a deep breath. I opened the one from my sister.
I noticed her handwriting.

Happy 18th Kellin
I love you so much. I miss you
A lot Big Bro-

Tears started to prick my eyes I wiped them away and kept reading.

Thank you for everything you have ever done for me. I am sorry I have left you,

I couldn't handle it. I tried my hardest for you I really did. Thank you for letting me sleep in your room it made me feel better but when I woke up It hit me.

You are the best thing I could have ever asked for in life stay strong for me.

I love you so much Big Bro have a fantastic birfday.
~Emily <3

I could barely finish reading it because my vision blurred from the tears.

I can't believe she wrote this just for me..

Jesse gave me a hug and I opened the one from my mom.

Dear Son,

I think since you are 18 now you deserve an explanation on how your sister died...

I came home and she was passed out on the floor with a bottle of pills. I immediately called the ambulance.

They. Took her They asked if I wanted to go with but it was too painful for me I was too scared of the outcome.

They called and said she didn't make it.

You came home and I couldn't bring myself to tell you how she died. So now you know. I am sory I didn't tell you earlier.

Happy 18 Kellin love you.

~Mom

I closed both the letters.

Jessie looked at me and yelled " FUCK GOD DAMN IT MAN I Can't keep this from you anymore!"

"What?"

He slammed his head into his hands and said "It's all a lie"

"What?"

"Well half a lie..."

I was still so confused. He saw this and continued.

"Your sister... She is alive... She did try to kill herself.. She failed though... The police and doctors questioned her .. She was put into hiding... Your mom didn't know she thought she was dead they called and said she was unresponsive after that she didn't accept any more calls..."

"WHAT THE FUCK!" I slammed my fist into the wall it broke through. Rage was written all over my red face and green irises.

"WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL ME!!!??!"

He backed away and said "I wasn't aloud to It's the fucking police man"

"You let me be all depressed shit man I cut, almost killed myself.. And all you have to say is the police were involved... You are supposed to be my best fucking friend "