HeavyDirtySoul | Tyler Joseph |

Sixteen

Andrea

Monday morning

Today was absolutely with a doubt freezing. My feet and hands were numb, my nose as red as a tomato.

I stumbled through the front doors the school. I steady myself and start walking to my locker.

I fit there to see Tyler and Josh already there waiting forever me. I smile at them as they slightly move aside so I can undo my lock.

"Heard your room now has a color." Josh says smiling at Tyler and I.

"Yeah, I'll send you pictures when everything is put together."

"How did you family react to us painting it by ourselves?" Tyler asks quickly, seeming very curious on the subject.

"They were surprisingly impressed with our job." I say, tryig to suppress a laugh. We all burst out laughing.

"Well I gotta catch up on some history homework I'll see you guys at lunch. He pats each of our shoulders, flashes us a smile before walking off.

The halls begin to clear as the bell will ring soon. Tyler and I walk together.

But I am passed and knocked into my books fly from my hands and onto the cold tile floor. I drop to my knees and begin collecting my books, not even bothering to check who knocked me down. Tyler helps as well, seeing how embarrassed I am.

"Watch where you're going, Paul." I hear the annoyingly high pitched voice of Amanda.

"Back off Amanda." Tyler says in a threatening tone. I don't think I've ever heard him talk like that ever. Tyler and I both stand up. Amanda just smirks at me her eyes brows raised.

"What?" I ask, my tone very bitter.

"I'm surprised how well you can mask your emotions Andrea. I actually admire you for keeping your secret for so long.." She trails, lookig at her long and obviously fake nails.

"What are you talking about?" I ask becoming nervous by the second.

"Oh you know what I'm talking about. I know you went though hell and back. It surprises you managed to stay alive. Only because your suicide attempts failed miserably." She goes on and on.

How the fuck did she know I tried to end my life I tried when I was almost 15 because I wasn't sure how to deal with myself just yet. What is up with this fake praising she's doing right now?

Tyler flashes me a concerned look when she mentions the attempts. He looked terried and extremely sad. I dot like seeing him sad.

"I don't know how yo-"

"Emily! God Andrea. I thought you were smarter. Emily spilled everything to me. You know how she's been distant from you? She's been with me spilling out all your secrets. I know everything that happened since the day your brother died right in front of you and your helpless attempts to wake him up when he was already dead." The bell has rung by now and the halls were clear except us 3.

I shake my head. I should have fucking known. People ask why I have trust issues. Well this is fucking why. Emily is a bitch. I should have seen this coming from a mile away. I knew she was acting weird lately. Dodging my texts and calls.

Right now though I have no words for anybody. Amanda stands there in her high heels, smirking at me like ses won some game against me and Tyler. I think of Emily. The girl who promised me that my secrets were safe and that she would be there for me forever. And Tyler, who is staring at me like a deer caught in the headlights of a car- that was a bad analogy. But the look on his face hurt me so much. He looked sad, scared, confused and most of all worried.

"Leave Amanda." He seeths, glaring at her with such disgust and intensity.

"I'll see you guys around." She said tauntingly, before walking off in the opposite direction.

My mind tries its hardest to comprehend what the hell just fucking happened. Emily back stabbed me, Amanda exposed me. And now Tyler knows the secret I've been longing to keep away from him.

"Andrea..." His voice cracks.
Under the intensity of the situation. The tension in the air is so thick.

"There Tyler. Now you know my secret!" I practically yell. I look through my teary eyes up at his sad expression. I shake my head and latch onto him.

"Why didn't you tell me?" He whispers.

"I didn't wanna drop off my emotional baggage on you.. You deal with me enough I thought I should keep something to myself. Fuck. I should have never trusted Emily. Fucking bitch." I'm angry at myself for even thinking for a second trusting her was a good idea. I always knew something was off about her I just couldn't pinpoint it but now I know. She can't keep secrets for shit.

"Andrea you don't need to hide things from me. I don't care how many things you tell me because I'll always be her to listen and make you smile through it. As cliche as it sounds, I'm realy sorry to hear this happened to you and your family." He rubs soothing circles on my back trying to calm me down. I turned into a crying shaking mess in his arms. Completely collapsing under the impact of it all.

Amanda knew my fucking secret, its all matter of time before she runs off and tells everyone. Knowing her everyone will know by tomorrow and everyone will tease me and look at me weird. I can't stop my mind from thinking these terrible and negative thoughts. No matter how hard I try to suppress them they always find their way back. It's toxic I tell you.

"I don't know where I would be without you Tyler.." I sigh, seriously meaning it. Well I feel like I wouldn't be on this earth anymore if it wasn't for him.

"Don't say that." He says quietly.
"Wanna ditch?" He then asks, slightly pulling away.

"For first period sure." I say quietly back, holding blurry eye contact with him.