HeavyDirtySoul | Tyler Joseph |

Twenty Twø

Andrea

The next day I'm completely and utterly dead tired. After me and Tyler's moment I shouted "see ya tomorrow!" And sprinted home, leaving him dumbfounded.

I pull on a pair of black leggings and a massive black sweater. I pull my hair into a high pony tail and brush my teeth. I grab my bag and leave the house.

On my walk my mind begins to ponder. What happens now with Tyler? I guess it's all my fault for not knowing since I ran away last night from him instead of being civilized and talking it out with him.

The kiss was great, I swear I blush everytime I think of it. I can still faintly feel his lips caressing mine. I crave the touch.

I reach school with loads of time to spare. I get to my locker and unload my things.

The moment Tyler's presence is next to me I suddenly becomes extremely lost and confused. What happens now? What are we..

I look over to see him grinning at me. I smile back awkwardly and finish grabbing my book.

"Have a good sleep?" He asks like usual.

"Yep." I nod, slamming my locker shut. I turn to face him. "You?"

"Good, I was up all night thinking.." He trails, totally indicating be wants to talk about it.

"Sorry about that." I mumble. "Anyways I gotta get to bio. I need to do my homework, I never got around to it earlier." I shrug.

"Everything all right with you?" He asks.

"Yep." I nod, smiling at him. It's a definite forced smile and he could probably tell. He knows me so well.

"Andre-"

"See you." I walk off in the opposite direction to biology. I mean I wasn't lying about the work, I really do need to catch up. I guess I'll talk with Tyler later.

I glance back over my shoulder to him him staring at me, looking so lost. He looked even more lost than I was.

In 2nd period, world religions with Josh he notices my angsty behavior as well. "How's Tyler?" He jokes, smirking over at me. Does he know about me kiss?

"I don't know, ask him yourself." I almost snap at him.

"Woah, sorry. Did you guys get into a fight?" He asks.

I simply shake my head no. "Did something happen?" He pushes further.

I shrug and nod, looking over at him. "I'll tell you later. Maybe." I promise. I will get around to it, after I sort stuff out with Tyler that is. He nods and smiles at me, before averting his attention up to the chalk board once again.

Lunch rolls around, and I end up texting Tyler and telling him I'll be in biology catching up on work and studying because I don't understand what we're doing in class. It's partly true, but I also don't want to face him and Josh and Ella. I know I'm bad by putting this off I'm just confused and overall not ready. By tomorrow I'll talk to Tyler I swear, just everything happened yesterday all too quickly.

I know Tyler kissed me back and told me he loved me as well, but what if it was a spur of the moment thing? What if he actually didn't love me? I can't help but think negatively. The voices are telling me it's all one big lie. I can't handle that.

The afternoon seemed to pass by very quickly while Tyler wasn't on my mind, but then I remember now he was all I could think about, so actually the afternoon dragged by.

At the end of the day. I desperately tried to leave school so I can go home and think, but I ran into someone. And it was like all the gods above me for some reason hated me because the person I bumped into was Tyler.

"Andrea please talk to me." He pleads, looking into my eyes. He looks so hurt, it makes me hurt. I grab his hand and nod, dragging him with me out of the school.

The cold breeze smacks me in the face, causing a shiver to trickle down my spine.

"Who's going to speak first?" Tyler asks finally.

"I will. I need to let you know that happened last night." I reply. "Before I showed up at your house." He nods ad we continue walking. I'm pretty sure we're going to his place, but I'm not sure.

"Yesterday I was moping around because, it was my older brothers birthday. I kept thinking about him and what happened. Later that night I ended up leaving the house, I was delirious. I jsut kept walking and damn Tyler I ended up at a train track. I wrote in my journal and I sat on the track with no intention of moving." My voice cracked slightly. We turned onto his street. I could feel his grip tightening on my hand the more I spoke.

"You should have called me-"

"I'm not finished." I sigh. "The train started coming down the track. But it didn't hit me, obviously. It zoomed by on the track in front of me. Then, I realized that, that could have been the worst decision I ever could have done. I thought about the things that happened in my life and you were there in the good times. All the times with you were good. They made me think about you, Tyler you don't know it but you saved me last night. I realized what I felt for you and I ran to your house." I let our a shakey sigh, and look over.

"You almost-" He starts

"- killed myself. Yes Tyler. You were the reason I'm here right now pretty much."

We finally made it to his house and he immediately pulled me into a hug.

"Andrea I don't know if I would be bale to live with myself if you went through with it. I love you." I felt my stomach flip when those words fell from his lips. He loved me and I liked him too.

"I know I'm sorry. I love you."