HeavyDirtySoul | Tyler Joseph |

Twelve

Andrea

A week later

"Andrea there's money on the counter, but loads of food in the fridge. You can order a pizza if you want. I mean you can still come Sharron wouldn't mind at all-" I cut Laurie off by throwing her over a glance.

"Laurie I'm fine, trust me." I smile. She rummages through her her bag, checking off if she has packed everything.

"I know I just.." She brings her voice quieter. "I worry about you." She says, referring to my depression.

"I know you do. Dad does as well, Thomas too." I sigh. "I'll be fine. I'll probably be hanging with the guys and Ella anyways." I assure her, trying to not roll my eyes.

They were going on a weekend trip to her sisters house in the next town over. She said I didn't have to go but if I wished I could. I'd rather stay home honestly and do my own thing. I can last a supper or say with extended family but a whole weekend, I would get too anti social to hang around for longer than that. Call me a bad person, I don't care.

She sighs and pulls me into a hug, something she rarely does anymore. I reluctantly hug her back.

"I'll be fine." I whisper to her. She nods and pulls away and I can see tears forming in her eyes for a split second. She quickly stops them, then we go to the foyer where dad and Thomas are waiting.

"Be good kiddo." Dad says, pulling me into his arms. I hug him back. "Call us if anything happens." He says before pulling away.

Thomas grabs onto my legs and hugs me tight. "When you're back let's play Mario kart, okay?" I ask him, resting my hand on his hat covered head.

"Yeah!" He says excitedly.. He pulls away and as simple as that they're out the door.

And I'm left all alone.

I stand there for a few minutes after. Not even watching them back out of the drive way or waving. I just stand there for a moment wondering what the hell am I going to do?

Tyler comes to mind but I can't always rely on him. I feel bad for constantly asking him to hangout and do stuff, I don't want to trap him. I want him to live his life. I don't want to be a hassle.

I lock the door and retreat to he living room, where I actually end up spending a few hours of the Destiny campaign while blasting music out of my speaker.

The clock turns to 6:30 when I realize I'm starving. I was so into the game that nothing else occurred to me until now when I shut my console off.

I shut off the TV and bring my phone and speaker over to the kitchen. I flick on the lights and open the cupboards.

I decide pasta is the right choice. So I grab a full box of bow tie pasta and drop it onto the counter.

I grab a pot and fill it with some water before putting it on the stove and turn on the element. As I wait for it to come to a boil, I tap my foot along to the My Chemical Romance emitting from my speaker.

The moment the water comes to a boil I'm snapped from my happy go lucky trance and begin to realize how lonely I really am. The silence floats around the room, around this damn house, engulfing me in it. I never dealt well with being completely alone.

I know I stay in my room for hours on end and be extremely anti social but that's when others are in the house and I can hear them conversing with each other. But right now I only hear the sound of one of the few soft My Chemical Romance songs playing but it doesn't sooth the anxiety building up inside of me.

I burst out in a loud cry and the tears just spill from my eyes. Why the fuck did I agree to this? I regret so many decisions, like this one. I so desperately wished I listened to Laurie and went with them to her sisters. Oh god.