HeavyDirtySoul | Tyler Joseph |

Twenty Øne

Andrea

I slam my eyes shut waiting for the impact to smash into me but it never comes. My eyes fly open to see the train passing on the track before my very own eyes, the loud screeching piercing my ear drums a it glides on the track.

I put myself on the wrong fucking track. I always though it was the left one, I guess I was wrong.

I let out a huge breath I had been holding in and decide to reflect on what just happened. I tried to end my life, but was given yet another chance (sadly but also not) and now I just sit here in silence. The wind howls through the grass and trees, giving me an odd chill. I could have been gone a few moments ago but now I sit here watching the train zoom by me.

I don't want to be cliche and say my life flashed before my eyes but a couple of tiny parts of it showed up. Some of my family birthdays, when Thomas was born, after my older brother died, and then the next few were Tyler and the fun times we've shared, the times we've almost locked lips, to the hand holding. When it first snowed, and when his face lit up when I gave him the Ukelele for Christmas.

It also made me realize I love Tyler Joseph and I can no longer keep these feelings to myself.

I roll the cement blocks off my legs that have now become exposed to the cold and I violently shiver at the feeling. I stand up front the tracks and jump off to the side grabbing my belongings. I start walking as far away from the tracks as I can and back into the town. I need to find Tyler I need to right now. He needs to know what the hell I'm feeling right now, it's now if never if I'm being honest.

I find myself back on the street, shop lights and street lights illuminating the streets before me.

People pass me, which confused me by a lot. What time is it ? I'm sure hours have passed. I don't even know, I'm all shaken up. I'm literally convulsing as I walk through the town. I'm relatively far from my neighborhood, as well as Tyler's.

I pick up my speed, walking down the side walk. I try my very best to not run into anyone. I mean, I wonder what's going through their minds. A hysterical, crying girl shooting her way though the side walk, speed walking as if she's on a secret world wide mission that is so important people could die. But really I'm on my way to tell the boy I love that I love him with all my heart, and to thank him for basically saving my life.

I turn into his neighborhood and can feel my heart pounding against my chest so much it scares me. This is it, this is really happening. My heart thumps away, causing my breath to hitch and my stomach to churn.

I start sprinting down his street now, I'm so desperate to be in front of him and confess this growing feel that has infected my mind. Tyler is all I can think about. He is my constant go to that makes me smile when ever his name is even mentioned, even thought of.

I reach his house. I don't see any lights on though. I pull out my phone to see that it's 11:36 p.m. I have loads of missed calls from my home phone, my dad's cell. Laurie's cell and Tyler as well. I smile through the tears at his name and click call back on his contact. This is it.

I tap foot and surprisingly he picks up not even after the first ring is over, thank god.

"Andrea." He says before I can speak.

"Tyler c-come outside. I'm at your house." I inform him, my voice shaking because of how nervous I am and how cold I am.

I hear him shuffling around his room, indicating he's getting up from whatever he was previously doing. "You worried me Andrea." He sighs.

"I'll see you in a few." I say, before ending the call. I shove my phone in my pocket, deciding to call my father and Laurie back later. If I put this off any longer I'll back out and that is something I can't do.

I glance up to see he is walking passed his window. A minute later he is pushing his front door open quietly, trying not to wake any of his family.

"I was about to get up and go to your house Andrea, please don't scare me like that ev-" I cant listen to his lecture any further. I definitely will later that is if he still wants to be associated with me after I do this. I grab the collar of his sweater between my shaking, pale fingers and pull him towards me. I pucker my lips, shut my eyes and smash my lips into his, shocking him at first. He is frozen for a second before he realizes that our lips are in fact together. He gently moves them against mine in a slow, fluent motion.

His hand snakes around my waist, pulling my body closer to his. I'm guessing that's a good sign.

I release his sweater from my fist and wrap my arms around his neck, pulling his lips closer to mine, if possible. He kisses me deeply and I can feel the passion. I'm on fire, heat radiating all over my body. I feel ignited with his lips on mine.

We both finally pull away, our lips swollen from the intense touch. My lips tingle, I reach my hand up and brush my fingers lightly against them.

"Tyler I'm sorry for worrying you but I really have to tell you something." I let out a breath, trying to catch it back. With the kiss and talking fast. I'm running out of it. He just looks at me with wide eyes and nods, encouraging me to go on.

"Tyler I'm in love with you."

"You know what Andrea? I'm in love with you too."