I fucked up. I'm sorry. I knew she would do this. I knew I shouldn't have said anything about it to her but I did and she opened her mouth despite me saying not to. Why in the hell I talked to her about it in the first place I'll never know. I guess I was desperate. That doesn't excuse it though. It affects you too. I'm sorry. I wasn't thinking straight. But I haven't really been thinking straight ever since I found out what was going to happen to him.