Don't get me wrong...I'm nervous for you. I know it's not easy. But I did mean it when I said there's literally nothing she can do about it so even in the worst case scenario it would work. It was nice though. Hanging out like that again. Made me think of how we used to all the time. I miss it and I think it's something I kind of needed. I guess in a way I've been feeling kind of alone with everything even though I know I'm not, but this made me feel like I wasn't. I think it's one of those thoughts that I suppressed because...I tried to go back to dealing with everything on my own when shit happened. I guess I just didn't realize that doing so after everything...I don't know where I'm going with this. I still wish you'd talk to me about shit though. I'll probably bring it up with you at some point. I just don't want to push you about it.
