I feel so weird. Like being in limbo between high and sick. If I try to think about things while Im like this...it ends so badly...my control starts faltering. What am I even supposed to be doing? I've just been...here? I don't know. I was right though. Trying to fix my sleep schedule was dumb because here I am awake at 4a.m again...I need...something...still don't know what I've been seeing. I really miss...running through the woods at night...I can't think straight..