Who was I supposed to "talk it out" with? Both of you were gone...and I was left to pick up the broken pieces of myself alone. I shouldn't have gotten used to having someone else who understood...cause now I dont know how to cope on my own anymore without substance. Because if I dont have substance I can't breathe. Water only makes me feel more sick to my stomach than I already did. No one else would understand it. I don't want to be alone again. Sure I may not say everything all the time but...at least I know that you guys were there. That you understood. I dont want to lose that again.
