Letting Go

Fifteen

"Baby I'm not gone judge you. What's up?" He asked.

"Well." I sighed. "I didn't always grow up with my father. I think that's part of the reason he's so protective of me. My parents were an off and on thing, they were in college and after they graduated I was conceived. My parents, never got in touch and my mothers family, completely disowned her after she refused to abort me and for whatever reason and I genuinely didn't feel like I missed out because of it either. I never longed for a father, or family really. I honestly think it was because of everybody around me either had one or the other so me missing mine wasn't that big of a deal. My mother was my world though. My hero in so many ways." I said sniffling. "She was amazing Reginald. She was a finance major, and she had just got a job at this huge firm, working as a Financial analysis, she always worked a lot but it never bothered me much because when she was around, she was around." I breathed out. "We had neighbors who were like family, they helped take care of me while she was gone and one night, after she had celebrated her getting her job and things being on the right track right after her and I had our own special dinner, she had gone out, but I wanted to check on her like I always do and I remember just calling her and calling her and nobody picked up. It made me so nervous because she was never one to not pick up the phone. No matter how much she worked, she always picked up for me. That early morning I found out that she had gotten into a really bad car accident. She hadn't even gone out, she was on her way to where ever they had been going and a huge eighteen wheeler truck hit her, head on. He was drunk, and he took my mother life." I said feeling Reginald's hand come up to my cheek.

"That was so hard for me. Because my mother was all that I ever knew. All of the love I ever felt, was because of her. I don't talk about her much, because most times I end up like this, a mess but I felt like I should let you know." I told him looking in his eyes. "It's hard for me to tell you everything. I just want to do this, just one step at a time.

"Baby take your time. That just explained so much about you. Why you're so close to your dad, why you're so strong and brave."

"I'm not strong." I laughed. "I hide. Because I'm scared. I am not brave." I told him.

"You grew up not ever having both of your parents at the same time. I had both mine, and I can't imagine going through that at such a young age, and still being sane." He admitted.

"That's why I told you that your life is your testimony. God is always preparing you for greater, and to elevate you. In some ways I needed to be elevated." I told him

He nodded looking at the fire as it faded.

"Let's get out of here." He said to me.

"Yes, let's because I have work tomorrow." I said.

"Can I have lunch with you tomorrow?" He asked me.

"I'd enjoy that. Hopefully I can indulge in such luxuries." I sighed.

"Why you say it like that? You don't get lunch breaks or something."

"Technically I do, I just never eat. I always have that much work." I told him.

"You really hate your job." He pointed out.

"I actually love it in someways." I told him.

"Because you get to fulfill the dreams your mother had." He said.

"Yeah, and it's even the same company." I added.

He nodded his head and we drove back to my place in silence.

"You know if you have something to say you can say it." I told him.

"Baby." He said looking towards me.

"Yeah?" I asked him.

"Let me say this, I think that you are beautiful, and sexy and talented, and amazing and gifted."

"You're so sweet." I told him kissing his cheek.

"And sometimes you don't use what you have to your fullest advantage."

"What do you mean?" I asked him.

"Why don't you put all the things you are amazing and wonderful and great at and actually do something you love?" He asked me

"Reginald-"

"I know what you're going to say, you want to make your moms happy and you want to make her dreams come true but do you think that she would rather you make all of her dreams come true and her truly happy but not yourself? " he asked.

"It's complicated."

"Don't sleep on your gift babe." He reminded me.

"I'll think about it, and pray about it." I told hi.

"Alright baby girl." He said taking off his seat belt and hugging me

"Kiss me woman." He told me causing me to laugh and kiss his cheek.

"You be trying to play me." He said and got out of the car.

"No." I laughed walking to the door.

"Yeah whatever. You gonna think about what we talked about?" He asked stopping at my door.

"Yes, I told you I would." I bit my lip.

"Alright." He said and pulled me closer kissing my lips lightly.

"Night." He said.

"Good Night." I said before I walked into the door.

I went into my sisters room to find her on FaceTime with her boyfriend.

"Oh I'm sorry. I just wanted to let you know I was home."

"Oh okay." She nodded. "Baby I'm gonna call you back." She told him and they said their goodbyes.

"Sissy, your room was disgusting, so I cleaned it."

"Thanks. I was searching." I told her.

"You're welcome boo. You gonna lay down with me?" She asked.

"I have my own bed." I laughed.

"Don't be like that!" She pouted

"Don't be like what?" I asked her.

"Acting like you don't want to lay with me."

"I don't. You got the cooties." I said.

"No I don't." She whined. "Come please." She begged.

"You act like you're the baby." I said and she smiled. I rolled my eyes and smirked. "I'm gonna shower and pray and come in here." I told her.

"Okay!" She said. "Hurry back to me my love!" She shouted.

"Got you!" I told her and she laughed.

I got into the shower and moisturized my skin. After I got down on my knees I began to pray. Thanking him for his works and also praying for God to lead and guide me in my decisions in all the aspects in my life. I went into my sisters room after prayer feeling light hearted.

"I love you sis."

"I love you too." I told her.

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Hope you like the chapter! More to come not as long as last chapter but I wanted you all to get a feel of A'taya's life.

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