Tear in my Heart // Joshler

Eighteen

Tyler is gone

My mother is gone

My father has been gone

Debby and Jenna are too distant to talk to

I'm gone

You're here

I can feel your presence

All I have is you, my journal.

Mother doesn't come to check on me anymore

Mother won't allow Tyler in the house anymore

Tyler doesn't come anymore

Just you

My phone is dead

I don't bother plugging it back up

Why would I

My phone's battery is dead. I could try to re charge it but eventually it will keep dying as time passes. I don't need it anyways, there isn't a use for it anymore,, not for me anyways

I'm sure Tyler has tried to get a hold of me through my phone but I don't feel like speaking

I haven't spoken a word in 3 weeks

Only me and my thoughts are left to be

It isn't safe

I haven't gone to school since my mother yelled at me that day..

Right before Tyler left he said, "see you tomorrow" boy was he wrong

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I'm back again, journal

I feel like I need to have a name for you,,

To make you feel more welcome

I'm not creative or smart so I'm just gonna stick with "journal"

I left because I heard a noise

It was coming from my window

I peered from underneath my black curtain to see Tyler standing two stories down, about to launch another rock at my window.

He motioned his hands upward signaling for me to open my window

But I didn't

I let my shades fall back down and I sat back down in my pitch black room

I'm sorry Tyler

You're wasting your time