I cant even... Connor Franta. (fan fiction of course)

A Few Words that I can't even.

Holy Cow, I've been out of the writing game for over a year and two months now. That's insane. I remember when I first began writing this, I was just a 14 year old girl who was terrified to begin high school in the upcoming year. I've been through love and loss and heartbreak and so much more since then, and a lot of the time, I used those particular feelings to help me write this fan fiction. I remember thinking my fan fiction would be different, I wouldn't leave people on edge for too long--I would update as soon as someone commented to do so, as long as people actually wanted to read the words I strung together. And I managed to keep up with that for the first couple months, but growing up takes too much time and responsibility, unfortunately. And I was busy experiencing some really shitty situations. I apologize to those of you who have been here since the beginning or somewhere in the middle or are just recently picking this piece of work up and reading it, it still means the world to me. Going through and reading it all now seriously makes me cringe--maybe to some of you it was well written, but oh my, I've come so far since then. What was I even thinking? hahah. Alright, I really don't have the time on my hands to continue to write, and to be honest, I haven't been fangirling as hard over Mr. Franta (although he'll always hold my heart) as I did two years ago, which drove me to feel all the things I did when I wrote this fan fiction--but I also don't have the heart in me to tell you this story is finished. Sure, it could probably end the way the last chapter did, but I don't want it to. I can't promise I'll produce anymore quality writing, but when I get the chance to, I'll give you the ending you all deserve. It may result in a few more poorly written chapters, but I'll get there when I get there. 

Because giving this piece an ending is so much more difficult than you all would imagine. Although I haven't touched it since October 23, 2014, it's been through a lot with me. And finishing it is like giving up the innocence and bright eyes that started it all. 

I'm sorry if this wasn't what you were expecting, but I needed to let it all out. I hope you'll be reading Chapter 25 soon. Much love. Message me on here if you ever need anything, I'm all eyes.

Stay Awkward.