I cant even... Connor Franta. (fan fiction of course)

This boy fell from Heaven... Or did he? #11

"So... You had fun?" Isabelle laid to the side of me on my queen size bed. Yes, we're sleeping in the same bed. We're not weird. My bed's just really big and comfortable. Haha. Anyway, we're both in our pajamas, makeup-less, and our hair is up in buns. Just laying there, talking. I know, I know, we're exciting people. (Sarcasm.) 

"Yeah, I guess so." I smiled, remembering how our date started out, with him throwing me over his shoulder. Wait. Did I just say date? I meant-- Well, there's nothing really else to call it. A friendly date, I suppose?

"You guys gonna get married?" Isabelle teased me. But I wasn't paying attention to her, I was still mindlessly thinking of Connor. 

"Yes.." I mumbled rolling my eyes. I had mistaken what she had said for something else I think, because Izzy started cracking up. 

"So when's the wedding?" Izzy asked me. I snapped back to reality. 

"What?" I confusedly asked. "Oh gosh. I wasn't listening!" I defended myself, hitting her. 

"Yeah, cause you were thinking about your boyfrienddd!" She made fun of me. Crap. That means she'll make fun of Connor if she ever sees him too. Then he'll think I said something about him to her. This will just not end well for me.

"SHUT UP!" I smacked her again. We started spazztically slapping each other and laughing hysterically. Eventually we both calmed down and went back to our original positions. "Soo... Kian?" I cheekily grinned at her. 

"Eh. He's nice enough." She shrugged.

"'Nice enough'?? What's that supposed to mean?" 

"It means, if he didn't already like someone else, I'd be all over him." She turned her head the other direction. Oh. She seems upset over that. Izzy doesn't get upset easily. 

"Did you like him?" I asked quietly. She turned her head back to mine, and I could see tears brimming her eyes. 

"I think so, Hayden." She paused for a few seconds. "I really do." 

I didn't know what to say, so I just grabbed her hand and squeezed it. That let her know I really am sorry for her. She knows how I don't like to be touched or touch anyone. She attempted to smile at me through pain. I hated seeing her like this. We just stayed there, in silence. Eventually we both dozed off to sleep, without another word uttered between us. 

"I think I'm falling for you." Connor hushed voice whispered in my ear. I didn't know how to respond. We were in a movie theater. I couldn't exactly jump into his arms and tell him I felt the same way. So I just smiled, as happy as ever, and intertwined my fingers in his. I leaned my lips closer to his ear, and gently kissed it. 

"I've already fallen completely for you." I stayed close to his face as I watched a smile appear. 

Suddenly the scenery changed. We were outside in a dark alley. How ironic. It was cold, I could see my breath in the wind. Something was dripping from me. I felt my nose, and it was all bloody. I started to panic...

I looked up to see Connor standing a few feet away from me, giving me a death stare. 

"What the hell's wrong with you, Hayden?!" He angrily yelled at me. I couldn't remember anything. No reason came to mind as to why we were in this situation, or why he was so angry. My mind connected the few dots I had though. He hit me. He did this. 

"What are you talking about?? What did I do?!" I screamed back at him. His arms tensed and his face became even more infuriated then before. 

"Sleeping with my best friend doesn't ring a bell?" He yelled at me, but not as loud as before. 

"I would never--" I don't remember anything. I could have done that. But why would I? 

"I thought I could trust you. You know how bad Jade hurt me with that same thing. How could you?" He started to sob. Who's Jade? His ex-girlfriend? She slept with his best friend? I thought they just dated. Wait, I slept with his best friend? Who'd I sleep with? I'm so confused. 

"I don't know, kid." I shook my head, my eyes started to water at the sight of him sobbing. 

"Don't call me that." He breathed out, and started walking towards me with his hand raised. Oh crap. 

I abruptly sat up. I was shaking, with sweat completely covering me. I looked over to see Izzy still sound asleep. At least I didn't wake her. I guess I had a nightmare. I tried to slow down my breathing and get out of bed. It was way too hot under the blankets. I started for my bathroom down the hall and clumsily turned the shower on. I didn't care if the water was hot or cold, I just got in, fully clothed. Everything was happening all at once. My mind was racing and I couldn't slow it down. It felt like I didn't have any control over myself. 

That nightmare... It contained everything I feared in life. I fell in love with someone.... I promised myself I wouldn't fall for someone again. Love is just too painful. I guess I hurt them. I never want to be the one to hurt someone. I know how it feels and I don't want to put someone else through that pain. 

I pressed my arms against the shower walls and let the water run down my back, as I continued to breath heavily. 

Another thing I was scared of... More abuse. And that came from me putting someone through that pain. That unbelievably heart wrenching pain. There's no good that can come from me doing something that awful. We both get hurt in the end. 

It wasn't real. It was a dream. It wasn't real. It was a dream. Calm down, Hayden. Breathe. It was just a dream. It wasn't real. Breathe, Hayden. Breathe. 

I kept my eyes closed, trying to calm myself down. I slowly started to return back to a regular breathing pattern. 

By far the thing that scared me the most about that nightmare was the person I was sharing it with. He was the one I hurt, and the one who hurt me in return. 

Connor. 

~Author's note: Whoooaaaa. I'm like freaking out while writing this! aha! I really hope you enjoyed! I know it's sort of short but I thought it was a pretty packed chapter! Ahhh! Will their love survive?? Wait, what love? ...~