Shawn Mendes Imagines

Childhood confessions

I was sitting on the old swing in this old playground. My playground. The playground all the kids used to hang out. Trade food, play. Where they made best friends. The playground I grew up in.

I kick some dirt up and swing a little. I haven't been here for over three years. But I had to come back. To realise what I had lost. A dear friend who I loved for so long. Yet he never knew. Now he's off on tours and interviews. Now he's famous and I'm the least of his worries. Now I'm something that's just forgotten.

He called a few weeks back. Asking me how my life's been. I told him it was great. I just left the part out about how much I wanted him to love me. To belong with me. To smile his smile, at just only me. Not at a full crowd.

But that's never going to happen. He's a celebrity now, and I'm just someone he left in the dust. A tear fell down my face. Showing how much emotion I was holding in. You can do it, you always can, something I tell myself everyday. But I'll always be a childhood friend.

I hear footsteps then see someone sit down in the swing next to me. His shoulders slumped and deep, sad brown eyes. Messy brown hair.

"I, um, didn't know you were here." He says, brushing his hands on his pants.

"I thought you were in London?" I said turning away.

"I was, but decided to come home for a bit."

"Okay..." I said swinging even more.

"We had so many memories here." He said slightly laughing.

"Remember when Danny wanted to get this girls attention so he threw sand at her?" He said laughing.

I smile only the slightest. Holding in laughter.

"C'mom, what's gotten into you." He asked leaning towards me.

"You, Shawn. You became famous and I'm the least of your worries. Shawn you mean so much to me, but I never let you notice. You know why? Because I knew one day, that this would happen. That you would be famous. And after that would happen, I would mean nothing. I noticed your talent, your love, compassion. Yet you never noticed that I was breaking without you by my side. Shawn..... you hurt me, and you didn't even notice." I said tearing up.

"Y/N, I'm sorry..." He whispered.

"Shawn, I loved you. I still do, but I know now, that was the most stupidest thing ever."

"Why." He said.

"Because, you don't love me." I said getting up.

"I'm always going to be a friend you can talk to when you get down. But I'm never going to be the girl you call up saying I love you. That you miss me. A girl who you embrace and love." I continued.

"Y/N, I do love you. But not.....-" He started.

"But not in that way. Yeah, I get it Shawn. I'm just a childhood friend."
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A/N. I hope you loved this one. I tried very hard to make it heartfelt and special. 💕 I love you all so much, don't ever forget that.