Adopted by Cameron Dallas.

65. If Only It Stayed Closed

Addison

School again today.

FML.

Dad keeps hanging out with slutsville even though she fucking asked if he was going to take me back.

Ever since he laughed at what she had said and what he said that night at home I've been thinking that he doesn't want me.

He doesn't.

I was an accident he told me himself maybe not directly.

Are relationship sucks.

I went downstairs.

He kissed Kate goodbye and ignored me.

"Fuck you", I said slamming the door and running out the door to the bus stop.

I heard a faint yell of my name but ignored.

I got to the bus stop and took a seat burying my head in my lap.

I felt a presence beside me. I looked up to see Kami on my left looking at me with curious eyes.

"Um hay", a voice cracked in my vocals.

"What's wrong", she asked.

"Um I don't really want to talk about it", I shrugged. I wanted to talk about it but not with her I wanted to with Sophia she knows how it can be.

She pushed her blonde hair away from her face her blue eyes sparkled in the dim sunlight.

I heard the bus and got up looking at my hands then approaches it I wondered if I jumped in front of the bus at its full speed would it kill me would it make me happier.

I shook the idea out of my head and closed my eyes.

I let out an exhausted breath.

The rest of the ride I looked out the window hoping things would get better.

When I got to school I saw Hayes he tried to smile at me before I turned around.

I closed my eyes and kept walking when I bumped into a wall. I opened my eyes to see.......

CJ!

I gave him the hug of a life time.

He was taken back but hugged back.

I cried in his shoulder,

His sent reminded me of the home I used to know.

The lit vanilla candle dad lit almost everyday and the light touch of cinnamon from the pie she used to make.

"Hay what's wrong", he said wiping a tear.

"Dad not want *big breath* me and *huge breath* I don't kn- kn *panic attack*"

"Addison", he yelled then the room felt like it was closing in.

***

I sat in one of the beds in the nurses office with an ice bag to my head.

"You feelin any better honey", the nurse said with a country accent.

I nodded.

"Should we call dad to pick ya-"