Adopted by Cameron Dallas.

67.Therapy

Addison

Things have getting better since you know.

Except I have to go to therapy. It makes me feel like I mental. I'm not I just made a mistake. I'm not depressed I just was sad.

This whole even was one big misunderstanding in both parts.

"Dallas" the lady in scrubs called.

Dad barely lets me out of his sight now he doesn't trust me alone with just myself yet. I think it's ridiculous but I get it he's worried.

"Um I'm sorry Cameron Mr.dallas I don't know what to call you@, the therapist asked.

"Um Cameron", he smiled.

"Um Cameron I'm sorry but you can't stay in here she might hold back some words of your head don't worry we'll take good care", she said shooing him out.

"So Addison", she said.

"Yes", I questioned.

"Your attempt was remarkable nothing I've ever seen before I mean in the depressed community of teens that I deal with you are the dirt to think of going to their allergies to commit", she said astonished at what my files said. I looked at her confused she's acting like what I did was a good thing.

"Well of course you shouldn't have tried to commit but since you did I just wanted to let you know your one of the first I've seen", she said writing something down.

"So why did you try", she asked.

"I felt sad", I said bluntly.

"About", she asked.

"Well my mom died when I was days old I was then put an adoption center while my dad searched for me for three years found me I thought I was adopted and would never know who my parents were till not too long ago when I was told otherwise I was hit by a car I saw my dead mother in a coma physically touched her brought my coma went through my parents love life and more my dad fell in "love" with a slut called me a mistake and brings my mom up in every conversation that gets heated my bestfriend from a long time ago died from a heart disease my alleged ex bestfriend and boyfriend first dated the girl who has bullied me for years then when we dated he cheated on me and I caught him in the act I was suspended from school from whooping the girls ass who bullied me and was the one messing with my boyfriend my older brother left with my dads ex girlfriend who is crazy my little sisters real dad was abusing her when she left when I got back she told me she was being bullied and that I'm her only friend and I just tried to commit suicide that's the reason why", I said letting it all out.

"Wow", she said.

"But your getting better right", she said.

"I'm not depressed I made a bad decision I admit it okay I was scared to live on so I tried to stop it all together I was confused", I yelled.

She went to hug me.

I pushed away.

"I refuse to be treated like a mental child who can't be trusted alone who needs depression pills and therapy self harms and more", I said throwing down the stupid note pad.

"Would you have had a better child if your mom had lived", she asked.

"No", I said wiping my tears.

"Why not" she asked.

"Because I did not have a bad child hood my dad made sure I was happy for the most part and I didn't dread those years I don't know what my mom would've done I won't know and maybe that's why I'm so emotional about things like that is because I know I will never grow up with her" I said.

"My best friend got her period and she was telling me about how her mom helped her then when I was in my room laying down I thought of all the girly things that would happen to me soon and how I wouldn't have a mom to help me I wouldn't have anything", I cried.

"It's disgusting and then I got through my dads emails to get one from the Arizona jail saying how my grandfather the man who killed my mom her own father killed her wants to meet me again and CATCH THE FUCK UP HE HAD KILLED SO MANY THINGS CAUSE SO MANY PROBLEMS IN MY LIFE I THAT I COULDVE AVOIDED HE KILLED HER BECAUSE HE WAS MAD THAT HIS DAUGHTER HAD SEX SO HE KILLED HER HE KILLED HER AND HE WOULDVE KILLED ME AND MY DAD TOO", I said getting mad.

"THATS WHY I TRUED TO KILL MYSELF IS BECAUSE ALL THAT CRAP THAT HAPPENED I CANT CHANGE BUT IF I WERE DEAD ID BE WITH MY MOM WHERE I COULD SPEND ALL THE LOST TIME TOGETHER WITH HER", I cried.

"I'm a lost girl", I said sitting on the couch.

The therapist had came to a conclusion.

"You have potential you do and you overthink things a lot and you are very curious all that stuff that unfortunately happened to you was the icing on the cake it gave you a fake reason to kill yourself it was enough to tell your brain that's the reason but all that extra is not the reason you're curious about your mom you just want to be near her you aren't worried about any of the past stuff as much as you are with the curiosity of your mother", she said.

"That's all Addison your good to go I've got enough your dad should get a call by 6:00 tonight", she said.

I blew my nose then walked out.

Dad noticed how my face was puffy and my eyes were smaller.

He kissed my cheek and picked me up.

He didn't let go of the hug and I had a feeling he didn't want to for a while.

A long while.

"How was therapy Addie", dad asked.

I shrugged my shoulders.

He didn't ask anymore questions he just moved on.

"I've got a date with your favorite tonight", he said sarcastically.

Oh no he's talking about the slut from I don't even remember but that one slut that we went to dinner with the night before I commit.

I hated her guts and thought by now they would be through.

But no.

He's giving her another chance. I think I rather Emily than her.

We walked in the house to see CJ and Kate watching sponge bob.

"CJ I need you to set the table", he said. He looked up at me and I gave him the 'yes that slut is coming' face.

He groaned rolled his eyes and pulled out the silverware.

This will be one heck of a dinner.