Irreplaceable

Chapter Five

Carter's POV

I was doing my math homework in the living room when I heard a knock on the door. I opened it up to Chase. How did he know where I lived?

"What do you want?" I asked coldly. I was upset that he had left me.

"You." He said simply.

"Well, you can't have me." I answered. He let himself into my house. That was rude. I rolled my eyes and shut the door. I folded my arms over my chest and looked at him.

"Don't be mad. Deep down you want me too." He smirked. He wasn't lying, though. I did want him but I also wanted Colin. Colin was number one in my life.

"I want Colin and only Colin." I responded.

"You don't have to lie. You and I both know what you really want."

"I don't want anything –"I was speaking but Chase cut me off and kissed me again. He put his hands on my cheeks.

I couldn't hold back any longer. I kissed him back. I moved my hands to his hair. Chase picked me up and sat down on the sofa with me straddling him. He moved his hands up my shirt.

What was I doing?

I stopped kissing him and got off his lap.

"We can't do that ever again." I said quietly.

"We would do whatever if you were my girl." He grabbed his jacket and left. I sat down on the couch I had just cheated on my boyfriend with. I touched my tingling lips and tears started to flow down my cheeks. Why did I enjoy that kiss? What was wrong with me?

Chase wanted me. He kissed me with passion. Colin kissed me like that, but Chase did it differently. I was at a cross road.

Colin was loyal to me and I just allowed Chase to kiss me. I knew I had to tell Colin and face the music. I hoped he would forgive me.

***

I was sitting on Colin's bed and I had just finished telling him everything. He was angry and I was crying. I felt like crap. I was crap. I cheated on my boyfriend.

"Colin?"

"I can't do this anymore. How could you do that? When Angel was touching me, I dropped her on her ass. Chase kisses and you let him? If you want to be with him, then go be with him. You should just know that I did love you."

He loved me. I was such a horrible person. I could see the pain I had caused him.

My heart was shattered like a piece of glass. Everyone knows you can't repair broken glass. You can try to glue it back together, but it will never be whole again.

"I need to clear my mind. I am so sorry. I am horrible. I understand if you hate me." I said.

"I could never hate you. Maybe we need to try being apart for some time. If in the end, we are back together again, then we will know we were meant to be. I love you. I really do."

"If you love me, then how come you always look at other girls?"

"I always compared other girls to you. No one ever measured up. I didn't want any of them. I only ever wanted you."

Colin really did love me. I was trash. My guilt kept piling on and I sank into a hole of sadness.

"Can we be friends?" I asked.

"I'd rather that than us not talking." He smiled weakly.

I had caused Colin so much pain. I walked to Colin and kissed him. It was just a peck. He didn't try to kiss me back. The rejection hurt, but I deserved it.

I was walking home from Colin's house. I was thinking about everything. I had no one anymore. Angel and I were done. Colin and I were done.

When I got home, my house was a mess. I heard my mom and dad arguing. Today was just a bad day. Everything was upside down.

I went upstairs to my room and closed the door. I didn't care about anything or anyone anymore.

I collapsed on my bed and cried.

***

Angel's POV

"So she made out with you?" I asked Chase.

"Isn't that what I said?" He replied sharply.

Chase had a smart mouth. I couldn't hold a conversation without him snapping at me. I couldn't wait for this to all be over because I was going to have his neck next.

"Why do you talk to me like that?" I wondered.

"You disgust me." He said cruelly.

"Well if you don't want that football scholarship, you are welcome to end this all and leave." I smirked.

My uncle was the dean of the University of Berkeley in California. It was Chase's dream school. His dad went there and loved it. Chase wanted to follow in his footsteps. Every year, I helped my uncle decide on applications. Chase was guaranteed to get in, if and only if he followed my directions.

"I'm good." He replied.

"You should really treat me better."

"That wasn't a part of the deal."

"Your future is in my hands."

Chase became angry and rose from his seat. He walked up to me and got in my face.

"If you do anything, to mess this up, I will make sure you get the worst." He glared at me through gritted teeth.

I nodded my head. Chase left and slammed the front door on the way.

Ten minutes later, my mom came home. I dreaded seeing her. She always tried to talk to me like we were friends, but she knew how I felt.

I was cooking Mac and Cheese for my dinner.

"Hey, sweetie. I had a rough day today." She started a conversation with me.

"I didn't ask so I don't care." I said in a monotone voice.

"You treat me like crap."

"There's a good reason for it, too."

"Could we at least try to be civil with each other? I put in effort. Why can't you?"

"Should I start with how much I hate you? You killed my father's spirit and then you pushed him over the edge. You are a terrible person. When I turn 18, I am out of here. You'll never see me again."

She started to cry. She always cried when we spoke. I finished cooking my mac and cheese which I planned on eating for dinner. I only made enough for me. I left my mother crying in the kitchen and went to eat in solitude in my room.

I started to plan for tomorrow. Tomorrow I would try to become friends with Carter again. I needed to in order to break her down.

In the end, she'd have no one.