I used to destroy myself in many ways possible, but you came and held me together while I did just that.
We were miles apart, yet somehow you were with me every step of the way. Through my selfharming, eating disorder, and depression you were there pulling me through and I couldn't be more thankful.
Sometimes I go back in time and run through all the memories we have together, the good, the bad and the ugly. It's amazing how four years can go by and this love I feel for you only grows, and the love you have towards me only diminishes, and the pain gets worse and worse each time because I feel myself losing you, losing the only good thing I had. It's the type of pain that leaves you gasping for air because your lungs become small, and your heart begins to squeeze. This pain I talk about is one that can kill, it would be murder really, because you're the one killing me without knowing it.
I love you and I never want to lose you, but this distance between us is finally getting in the way and you're becoming distant.
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my thoughts at 12 a.m.
RandomPeople wonder what goes on in others minds... well here's what runs through my mind during the time where bodies sleep and brains race for solutions to the problems they create or may face each day... yet sometimes most of these thoughts stay a secr...
