I lie. I can lie to anyone and everyone, except for myself, I can't lie to myself. How I wish I could though, I wish I could make myself believe that deep down the things happening around me aren't hurting me but sadly that's not the case.
I should be used to it, the fact that I always end up getting ignored or forgotten. I wish it didn't hurt but it hurts so much. You want to know the worst part? He knows it hurts me, he can see it and I hate that because he's the only one that can see through me. I want to cry, break down and just let all the feelings out but I can't. I can't do that because I have to be strong, I can't let my walls down, so I'll just let it hurt me. I'll let my wound stay open until it's able to heal itself.
As I think about it more and more by the minute I realise that I'm the problem. I'm the one that's easy to forget, and I need to stop being that.
Slowly I feel myself falling into my depression, because honestly how much heart break can one person take before they die completely on the inside.
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my thoughts at 12 a.m.
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