One Direction Imagines Book Three

Niall - Scared Of Love

Wrapping yourself in the blankets further, you bundled yourself under the covers after taking a shower, something that had become your usual routine.

Last week, you broke up with Niall and it was the hardest decision you think you'd ever made, but insecurities got the better of you as you told yourself you would never be enough for the blue eyed boy who had fallen for you.

He had told you he loved you for the first time in the four months you had been together and you began to think that things couldn't continue. He couldn't be in love with you.

Your phone had been going off non-stop with texts and phone calls as well as voicemails and you'd had Niall banging on your door two days in a row, yet you refused to answer, staying in bed where you felt better to be able to avoid social media, fans, paparazzi and the one boy who would cause you to break down if you so much as answered his phone call.

Scared was an understatement.

You couldn't let yourself fall for him  even more than you already had just to be left for a prettier girl further down the line, you just couldn't.

Niall wasn't like that, but you didn't feel like you were enough.

"Y/N, open this door!" Niall's voice suddenly shouted as he banged on the door, causing you to flinch at the sudden noise.

Staying silent, you receeded further under the covers, trying to block out his lovely Irish accent which made your chest ache at the sound.

"Y/N, if you don't come to this door I'm going to knock it down!" He shouted, continuing to bang on the door.

"I'm not joking, I will do it!" He shouted, his voice sounding angry and confused.

Your simple phone call to him wasn't the right way to end things, you admit, but at the time, you didn't want to see him face to face, you'd only crack and hug him, when you needed to distance yourself if you were going to try and move on.

Your phone buzzed next to you as you picked it up, reading the texts from Niall as the rolled in;

Get to this door right now ! I know you're in there !

Your being mean...what did I do?

I love you with everything I am and this is what you do? You leave me?

I love you, I don't understand why you want to break up with me, I'm trying my best to be a good boyfriend. Im sorry if I disappointed you in any way, I love you.

Did you leave me because you didn't love me?

Your heart broke. Of course you loved him, more than anything, but your feelings told you not to.

Of course I love you, but we can't be together. I'm sorry. You texted back, lamely.

What else could you say? You couldn't even explain to yourself why you were scared, but the voices inside your head taunted you to the point of no return.

"Y/N!" Niall called in frustration, but you stayed beneath your comforting blankets, hoping he would leave soon.

Just then, he was quiet, he stopped knocking on the door and shouting for you and after a few minutes of silence, you believed he had left.

The tears welled up at the thought of never seeing him again, he was everything and still is everything to you.

Just then your bedroom door opened and you sat up in bed, locking eyes with those familiar blue eyes that lurked in the back of your mind every day.