I Have Already Given Up

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I look around me and I see love and destruction, each filled with terrors unknown and know. I look around me and I see that that this world is not mine. I am out of this world, I observe and I see, I gain wisdom and pain. I am untouchable yet I am touched by everything. I am unsure if this is a choice or not. I know I push love and happiness away because it hurts too much. I know that I hurt anyways, that I am not living life. Then again I gave up on being selfish with my emotions a long time ago. I am pitying myself but no one knows and I have already given up, so I really don't care. I don't want anyone's help or advice or wisdom, that's why no one knows. I am lonely in my world, but my only pleasures comes from the act I put up and that I have not given up on destiny yet. If in fact soulmates do excite then I hope I find mine...because I hope that they can fix me, but I'll fight till I can't anymore, that's for sure. If I in fact don't find anyone, I am already dead inside if I am already dying slowly now.

(I was going to put a song but it's being opinionated with me. "On Top Of The World" by Greek Fire)

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