My Reunion

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I wake up to another beautiful, cloudy day. Well at least today is my day off. I call up Hayes to ask if we could hang out today.

Hayes- Hey sorry I've been really busy.
Hazel- yeah I get the feeling. So today is my day off and I was wondering if you would like to hang out.
Hayes- aw baby I wish I could but I'm going to go hang with friends.
Hazel- Hayes.
Hayes- I know I know but I promised.
Hazel- so you rather hang with your friends who you see everyday then hang out with your girlfriend?
Hayes- no but I promised baby and you know how I never break a promise.
Hazel- oh really? Then what do you call that ring you gave me?
Hayes- please don't put this on me. I'm trying ok?
Hazel- I'm not sure if this is going to work.
Hayes- hazel baby please don't do this. I love you.
Hazel- I need time to think ok? Go hang with your friends. They need you most.
Hayes- I love you so much Hazel Marie Dallas
Hazel- bye.

I hang up throwing my phone on the floor. I lay back sighing, trying my best not to cry. I grab my pillow screaming into it. I know I sounded harsh but he put his friends in front of me.

I sacrificed almost everything for him for three years and he can't give me one day!? I turn to my side letting it all out. I cry in my pillow dying to see him.

I want to hold him, to kiss him, to talk to him in person. I wish he would feel the same. I shake my head wishing I never took this job.

I WISH I HAD MY BOYFRIEND!!

I lay back staring at the ceiling trying to calm down. I don't know if I'm mad, sad, or just straight up homesick. Maybe I'm a mix of all of them?

Who knows but I wish love wasn't this hard. I just have this hope that it will all work out but we haven't seen each other in over a year! A year!!

Why can't he just come and hang out with me? For one freaking day?? That's all I ask for. I rather trade all my money to spend a day with him. I'll even take a hour!

Gah why is love a freaking battle ground? Why can't love be simple as peanut butter, jelly sandwiches? Huh? I thought love would be like a Sunday afternoon drive.

But noooo love is stupid! Love is confusing. Why do I have to be at war with love? I give up. I love Hayes.... Wait.... What does love even mean?

I'm tired. I'm tired of fighting this love war. What's the point of fighting when all you do is get hurt or lose? Ugh I don't know what I'm doing anymore.

I sit up drying my tears. Ok. Suck it up and love your life. Yeah I only live once, got to make the most of it.