The Secret Sibling

S E V E N

Lacey's POV:
Kian sat out there with me for a while. "I just feel so lonely." I said, he didn't say anything. "I feel like everywhere I go people are talking about me. Or instead of thinking the good things will happen I think of the worst." He grunted. "Are you even listening to me?" I said, my voice cracked a little. "I'm sitting here asking you for help and your gonna grunt and not reply. Wow." I said standing up and walking towards my window. Tears poured down my face as soon as I closed my shades. Life didn't even seem worth it then. No one cares. No one wanted to listen. (I know anxiety is nothing to joke about and neither is depression. I have anxiety and I know what it feels like. So if anything triggers you just skip this part and read until you see the next bolded spot like this.) Jc didn't even care. I mean for all he knows is I'm his little sister and that's it. I don't even understand why he chose me. I felt my heart race and my palms get sweaty. The world infront of my went blurry and all that was running through my mind was how no one cared and how it wasn't worth it. I was alone. Alone. Alone. No one had the same feelings. Alone. No one cared. Alone. "Lacey." Alone. "Lacey!" Alone. "Lacey!" Alone. My head was spinning, my heart was probably going a million miles an hour. "Lacey!" Someone was shaking my shoulders and my vision started clearing. The little voice in my head went quiet. And in front of me stood my 23 year old brother. "Lacey. Are you ok?" He asked. I nodded and looked away hoping he couldn't read my expression. "Lacey. I'm sorry. Please tell me what's wrong." I shook my head, "I'm fine." I said, I don't know if that was for me or for him but the words left my mouth. "Lacey." He said, his eyes softened. "Please tell me what's wrong so I can help. Please." He said in a whisper. I shook my head. "I'm fine." I said. "Well it's getting late and I'm going to bed." He said with a non convincing look in his eye, his eyes searched mine trying to look for evidence of my feelings but I tried looking blank and boring. He sighed before getting up and turning the lights off then shutting the door. And leaving me. Alone.
(Ok that parts over you can come back now. Remember. I'm always here for you.)

The next morning

After the dramatic scene yesterday I went down to breakfast and sitting at the table was awkward. I saw Jc's eyes staring at my forearms. Looking like they were searching for something. "Jc. Do you have an old camera I can have?" I asked. He nodded, "After breakfast." He said. I nodded taking another bite of my pancakes. Jc's eyes were going to burn a hole in my forearms if they didn't look at something else. "Dude. Your creeping her out." Jj said. Jc snapped out of it and was quiet for the rest of the meal.

After I finished the dishes Jc pulled me upstairs to his room. "I just recently got a new camera so here." He said handing me a coolpix L340. I nodded and knew exactly what I wanted to do with it.

Finally I got a chance to be alone. After Jc giving me the camera, tripod, and microphone sound system that went with it I walked to my room and logged onto my laptop immediately typing in the usual YouTube.com. I set up a YouTube account called LaceyJane. Yes Jane is my middle name. Anyway, I then went on google and searched up the best editor and ended up finding that my apple computer same with a pretty good editor one.

I spent the next half an hour trying to figure out what my intro and outro would be. And the theme. So I decided on doing. 'What's up everyone' then look both ways 'it's LaceyJane' then I would make a thing like Connor Franta does that shows up. I had no idea what to do for a theme but I decided my outro to be 'and that's it for this week. I hope you have a fantastic Wednesday and I'll see you next time' then cover the lens with my hand. Someone cleared there throat. I looked up from the note book that I was scribbling my ideas on. "So what are you doing. You've been up here for hours." He said. "I'm gonna start a YouTube channel." I said, "Oh." Was all he said, "Well I have an old lighting system that might work if you want." Kian said. I nodded and smiled. "Thanks Ki that would be the best." I said, "Ki?" He asked, "Just go along with it." I said smiling and watches him walk out of my room before starting to scribble down in my notebook again.  I was determined to keep my mind off of my problems.

A/N
If your number one question is 'Why isn't she in school?' Well it's June and her school ended a week before Jc came and got her. So I hope you like the idea of Lacey following in her brothers footsteps. But will that ruin his plan of keeping her safe from his fans? I don't know?😏😏 Ok maybe I do but I want you to tell me your predictions in the comments.

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