The Secret Sibling

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Lacey's POV:
I finally gave up but I put my filming stuff in the back of my closet since there wasn't enough gh room in my room. Besides coming up with a video idea, I have to figure out a place to film.  I was thinking of sitting on my desk chair and filming there or on my bed. But again my bed might be better so. I wrote it down on the piece of paper that was now filled up with little side notes for this. My phone lit up and vibrated. I looked at it and noticed it was a text from Jc.

Jc✌🏻️- Pizzas here if you want it. I ordered you pasta.

I replied back fast.

Me: ok.

I sat up from my desk chair and walked down the stairs quietly, hoping not to make much noise. I made my way to the kitchen to see Lyn, Jj, Jc, Kian, and some other girl that was on Jc's right side. She had auburn hair that went just passed her shoulder blades and hazel eyes. She was very pale and lots of freckles could be seen on her face. She smiled and waved as I sat down on the other side of Jc hoping he wouldn't say anything. "Well good evening miss Lacey." Lyn says smiling. I smile and take a small bite of the pasta that was set in front of my place at the table. "So. Tomorrow do you want to go to the beach or something?" Jc asked, I shrugged not answering but everyone else nodded. "Lacey. What's wrong?" Jc asked looking down at me. "I'm fine." I mumbled and put another small bite in my mouth.

After finishing dinner I ran back up to my room and started thinking of YouTube ideas I could do. But for my first video I would definitely do a fact one or something. My brain was empty besides the stupid things that kept flashing here and there. 'He doesn't like you.' 'He's putting you up for adoption'  I shivered at the thought of those happening. But I continued to ignore in and try to be happy but it didn't happen. Because all of those thought just flowed in and didn't leave. My body froze, my palms became sweaty, and then my vision went blurry.

(TRIGGER ALERT. DO NOT READ IF YOU GET TRIGGERED BY THIS. WAIT UNTIL THE BOLDED PRINT SHOWS UP AGAIN.)

These thoughts kept racing through my mind until it felt like it totally paralyzed me. I couldn't move my body, couldn't speak, couldn't breath. I just say there with the thoughts running. Through my mind. 'He's going to leave you' alone. 'He's never going to talk to you again because you don't like his girlfriend' alone. Then through the muffled silence. I heard the door open. "Lacey. I just wanted to come in here and- oh my god." I felt a soft hand come to my neck, probably checking for a pulse. "Jc! Come quick!" "Lacey baby. Listen. Come on. Can you hear me." Someone was shaking my shoulders. I couldn't unmask the face. "What's wrong?" I heard Jc say. "She's not breathing. Call 9-1-1 or something!" The female shouted. "Lacey. I need you to breath." I tried. But nothing moved. Then I felt dizzy then I can't remember what happened.

(Ok you guys are good now.)

"I have some bad news." Doctor Schiller said as e shut the door. Jc patted my knee making sure to let me know that he was there. "From what you told me Lacey you have anxiety. Anxiety is a feeling of worry, nervousness, or unease. Sometimes the worst possible outcome pops in your head and other ideas come in to support it. Those thoughts are causing you to go into panic mode causing sweaty palms, blurred vision, muffled voices, and finally a possible out come of passing out." He said. "In order to stop these panic attacks from happening you must take antidepressants and I'm going to set you up a meeting at a counselor that deals with teens who have anxiety. Her name is Doctor Mikel." Doctor Schiller said. "Now. These antidepressants are not stress relievers. You can only take one to two a day, technically depends on how much you way, over dosage could mean possible danger. There for an adult must be present, such as yourself Mr. Caylen, and watch her take it and keep the bottle with you at all times." He continued explaining technical things as I zoned out. Counseling session? No thanks. "Of course anxiety is something you can grow out of but it will take a couple years. You can't take the medication and have the thoughts stop the next morning." He wrote something on his sheet of paper then typed some stuff in his computer. "This prescription was sent to Walgreens in Los Angeles under the name of Lacey Caylen. Start the medication tomorrow and." He wrote something else on a different sheet of paper. "This is the date of your first counseling session at ****** ****** *****. I need you to come in every two months so I can log in your progress. If you are not having any then I will get a stronger antidepressant. I hope you get better Lacey." And with that he walked out of the room while I sat there looking at the two sheets of paper that was handed to me. Mentally sighing I got up from my chair and followed Jc go the jeep. I was so ready to just go hide in my bed. I am just so done today. 

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