I Hate Myself but I Love You

Chapter 40

Carmilla's POV

"We need a plan." LaFontaine says as soon as everyone's finished eating. "How are we going to kill the Dean without killing Perry?"

"I'm not sure that's possible." Mr. Hollis tells them from where he's washing the dishes. I offered to help (it is my cabin after all) but he refused. I decided not to argue. I'm tired enough after Xena and Laura were climbing on me last night.

"She's possessing Perry, right?" Kirsch asks. "So what if we get her to possess someone else?"

"I can't believe I'm saying this again," Danny mutters. "Kirsch might be onto something. We could get the Dean to possess someone we can kill."

"No." Laura shakes her head, her eyes fiery. "No. I don't want anyone else to die in order for us to take down the Dean."

I reach down and let my finger graze her hand, letting her know without words that I'm here for her. I know she takes all this really hard.

"Okay, so we could get her to possess a dead body." The Ginger Nerd suggests.

"We could put her back in her normal body." Beanstalk proposes.

"And how would we do that?" Mattie scoffs. "Mother's body is at the bottom of a pit rooming with an anglerfish god. Getting down there will be next to impossible, and even if we survive the trip, there's a chance we'll set the overgrown goldfish free. And then it's the end of the world."

"Okay. Let's not do that." Laura looks to me. "Any ideas, Carm?"

"None. Sorry, cutie." I give her an apologetic look.

Laura nods. The room is thick with silence until Kirsch perks up. "Bro, what if we get her to possess a vampire's body? They could, like, duke it out and we can see who wins."

"I don't think anyone's going to willingly do that, beefcake."

LaFontaine runs a hand through their hair. "We could... There's probably a spell or something that would make Perry aware. I mean, Perr's stuck in her own head, watching as her body kills people. She'd want a fighting chance to beat the Dean." We're all quiet and I go over it in my head. It's a good idea and it just might work. "We can do that, right?"

"I remember reading about a spell that might be able to do that." Mr. Hollis offers. "I can look back at my books and find it."

Laura's smiling and I can feel the optimism radiating off of her. It's comforting knowing that her turning hasn't changed her as much as I feared. "Carm? What do you think?"

"It's the best bad idea I've heard all day."

"Danny?"

"I'm in. Perry's tough and if anyone can get the Dean out of her body, it's her."

"Kirsch?"

He gives Laura his puppy grin. "Yeah. We can totally take her this time."

"Mattie?"

"I'm only doing this because I don't want Mother to destroy the world."

"Good!" Laura claps her hands together once, beaming. "We have a plan. We can do this."

After so many chapters of me stressing because I couldn't figure out how they were going to get the Dean without killing Perry, I'm happy I finally have a vague idea. All of their rejected ideas are ideas I came up with but didn't want to use. I promise it's going to get more interesting soon. Eventually, at least. Thank you all for reading and stay awesome!