I Hate Myself but I Love You

Untitled Part 44

Carmilla's POV

I pull away after a moment, leaving only inches between us. Laura's eyes dart from my lips to my eyes.

"So is that a yes?" I ask.

Laura makes a humming sound, not understanding my question (and distracted by my kisses. It's one of my favorite noises that she makes).

"Will you be my girlfriend?"

Instead of rambling on, she surprises me by saying just one word. "Yes."

She rests her arms on my shoulders and kisses me. Her hands tangle in my hair and I smile into her mouth.

Laura's given me a second chance, and I know that no matter how forgiving she is, I probably won't get a third chance. I hope I never have to find out. We may have our differences, but last time, what really caused our relationship to fail was our lack of communication. After so many centuries of keeping my emotions to myself, I wasn't used to have anyone to share them with. Ell didn't know that I'm a vampire, so I couldn't truly confide in her. Mattie and Mother both feel that emotions make people weak. But that is no excuse.

Laura has been kind and understanding about everything since she's gotten used to the whole me being a vampire thing. I'm still not used to having someone around that wants to be by my side with no ulterior motive. I pushed away before; the first time we tried this. I was terrified that if she heard about who I am, she'd run in the other direction and never look back.

But I'm actually going to try now. I'm going to try to talk to her about how I feel, tell her when I'm uncomfortable, and let her see into my past, both the good and the bad.

We both have made mistakes in this relationship, but we have eternity to make up for them. Assuming Mother doesn't start the apocalypse and kill everyone.

But in an astounding turn of my luck, once again, she is mine and I am hers. This won't be easy, but she's worth it.

We kiss slowly and I thank whatever gods are listening that we're together again. I don't know what I've ever done to deserve her.

"Carmilla! Laura! Come here, I've found the spell!" I hear Laura's dad yell.

We freeze and pull away from each other. I look around and see that he isn't here, he didn't see us.

"We'll have to tell him eventually." Laura murmurs.

I refocus on her and let out a short laugh. She looks at me, confused. "Cutie, if we go over there looking like this, everyone's going to know anyways. Our hair's a mess, for one thing."

Laura flushes as I smooth her hair before I fix mine.

"Laura? Carmilla?" He calls again.

"They're probably busy fixing their sex hair." LaFontaine murmurs. "Oh, sorry, Mr. Hollis."

I roll my eyes and take Laura's hand. Of course they'd comment on his daughter's sex life while standing right next to him.