I Hate Myself but I Love You

Chapter 46

Carmilla's POV

Laura turns to me. "So what are we going to do while they do that?"

I smirk, "I can think of a few things."

Laura giggles, a beautiful sound that makes me smile. "No seduction eyes right now, Carm. I want to do something useful."

"Cutie, I think is going to be one of the rare times that we don't have something we have to do. I know you want to help, but there's nothing we can really do right now. Let's just take this time to enjoy it."

"But..."

"Laura. This is peace and quiet before we have to pretty much go to war with my mother and can only hope that Perry's strong enough to win against Maman in Perry's body."

Laura lets out a breath. "Yeah, I know. I just don't like sitting around doing nothing, it gives me time to worry."

"I could help distract you." I offer. Laura looks at me incredulously. "I didn't mean it like that. We just got back together and I don't want to rush. If we survive my mother, we'll have eternity to figure this out."

"You're such a good sweet talker." Laura murmurs, giving me a quick kiss.

"Nice, Hollis." LaF says, grinning. I give them a glare and they hold up their hands. "Hey, your girl decided to kiss you out in the open when you maybe knew I'm here. Though maybe you forgot I'm here because you two were so wrapped up in each other. You're disgustingly cute together. Being around you two too much will probably give me a cavity." I just look at them. "Because you're so sweet. Get it? No? You have lost your sense of humor, Karnstein." I continue glaring until they pale and get the hint. "Oh, right. I'll just be... somewhere else."

They walk off after giving Laura thumbs up, which makes her laugh.

"Carm, you were being rude to our friend." Laura pouts (adorable) and pushes my shoulder lightly.

"What? I didn't say anything. Plus, they interrupted the best part."

She takes a step closer to me, our breaths intermingling. "Oh yeah? And what would that be?"

A grin lights up my face. I love it when Laura gets playful like this.

"This." I whisper, pressing our lips together.

I feel her smiling against my mouth, which makes me smile as well until it's not a kiss anymore; it's our teeth clashing together as we chuckle breathlessly together. It's not a perfect kiss by any means, but to me it's beautiful. It's us. What we have isn't perfect either. But what we have is pure, and everything I never thought I'd get. After Ell, I didn't give up on love. I gave up on myself. I have this voice in my head that points out flaws in everything I am and everything I do. But Laura's this grounding force that keeps me from straying too far into the darkness that once threatened to consume me. That's something I can never repay her for, but I'll spend the rest of our lives trying to. As long as she wants me, I'll be by her side.

I lean in and kiss her again.

Awww. Some fluff for you guys before whatever happens next! :D

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