I Hate Myself but I Love You

Chapter 57

Carmilla's POV

"Perry?"

Perry or whoever's in her body right now, jerks and then smirks at Laura.

"Wrong, poppet."

Her head snaps to the side again, "I said, get out of my head!"

"Oh, you foolish girl. You think a mere human could take me out of their body?" She sneers at Matska. "I thought I taught you better than that. This mortal is absolutely pathetic, even for a human. It cleans whenever it's anxious, which is exasperatingly often." She sighs dramatically, but she hasn't moved from the center of the circle. Is she stuck there until she's done fighting with Perry or Maman? "Why did this one have to be the easiest body to get into? Why couldn't it have been that handsome yet stupid young man William used to be acquaintances with? Or even the pet my diamond girl turned?"

She's silent for a few moments, smiling at odd intervals. I can feel the fear from JP and LaFontaine. They're both worried about their friend, and I don't blame them. I'm not sure if Perry can win against Maman. I hope she does, for her sake and her friends' sakes.

"Get out of me," Perry snarls. I'm pretty sure it's Perry, at least. "And stop going through my memories!" Her body twitches again.

"Humans are so incredibly dull and boring." Maman sighs. "This one thinks listening to the scientist ramble on is interesting. I must say, this mortal has impressed me. Her mind is still here and sane, even after all this time I've been possessing her."

"The only not sane one in this body is you." Perry hisses. "Get out, or I will start fighting dirty."

"You? Getting dirty? You obsessively clean your room after you find one speck of dust just in case there's any more lying around." Maman laughs.

I think they've forgotten we're here and are busy battling it out.

"I'm allergic to dust. And I warned you!"

"What?" Maman's eyes widen and she looks like she wants to take a step back, but can't. "You insolent girl! Remove yourself from my memories!"

"Get out of me, Lilith. But that's not your real name, is it?" I sit up straighter. It isn't? Those of us close enough to call her anything other than Master or Maman (she has other titles we call her, but she doesn't need to know some of them) only call her Lilith. "It's really-"

"Hush, you fool!"

"I will, when you leave me." Perry says, sounding a lot braver than I expected she would. Though I can see the fear in her eyes. "Otherwise, I'll tell your precious children all about your dirty little secrets."

"You wouldn't. Some of them could destroy the very fabric of the universe!"

"Oh, I would. Carmilla, did you know that Ell wasn't fed to Lophiiformes? Your dear Mother kept her around for years until she died, using her as a blood bag. For eleven years, she was kept alive just as punishment for her, not for you. The Dean was jealous that you found someone that could love you in the way she never could. And JP. She didn't suck you into the internet; in fact, she has no idea who did. And Matska. You know how she promised to leave your family and children alone after she turned you? She didn't. She sent one of her thralls to slaughter them all in their sleep. That's why she didn't let you go back for centuries."

"Enough!" Maman roars, the ground shaking with the force of it. "Leave my new body, you pest!"