The Light Of My Life

Thirty One

"Elle!", agad ko itong niyakap at kitang-kita ko naman ang pagkagulat sa mukha nito. I can't help but to cry knowing that she's infront of me.

"Why?", tanong nito.

"I, I just had a bad dream. I thought I lose you. I'm sorry sweetheart, I passed out because I get drunk. I promised this will be the last time and I won't hurt you anymore.", umiiyak na utas ko rito at niyakap ng mas mahigpit.

"It's just a bad dream babe, don't worry I will never leave you. I will always be in your side. Don't let yourself get drunk again okay I love you!", nakangiting utas nito at niyakap ako. I hugged her tight and I realized her tummy.

"Sweetheart whe-".

Natigilan ako dahil bigla na lamang umikot ang mundo ko.

..

"Dude, wake up!", nagising ako dahil sa pagyugyog sa akin, namulatan ko ang pagod na aura ni Mike. Then I realized I was just dreaming. But everything seem so real. I knew it was her.

"Dude, kanina ka pa hinahanap dun. Sinundo na ni Eclaire si baby Marieco.", anito na mababakas ang pag-aalala. "May pagkain akong, dala kumain ka muna bago maligo ang baho mo na. Tas dinumihan mo yung bahay niyo. Magagalit si Elle niyan.", anito hindi ko mapigilan ang masaktan sa sinabe nito, kaya naman napaiyak na ako "I'm sorry dude!".

"It's okay, dude! Pero ang sakit putcha. She visited me in my dream pare, hindi ko pa rin matangap. Tatlong araw pa lang pare pero ang sakit, gago kasi ako.", saad ko nakita ko naman tong umiiling. "Elle doesn't deserve to be hurt and I promise not to leave her but I did. Mike suntukin mo ako pare. Tang-ina, kung alam ko lang. Pare tang-ina talaga!", hindi ko na mapigilan ang magsalita ng masama. Si Mike naman ay nakikinig lang sa akin. "Dude, hinayaan ko yung sarili ko na matukso dun sa damdamin na minsan kung naramdaman. Fvck pero dude, God knows how much I love Elle. I admit nung sinabe ni mommy na kailangan kung pakasalan si Elle dahil buntis ito, nagdalawang isip ako. But I love her I really do, I was thinking about Lucia. But I still proposed to Elle, alam ko na kailangan maging buo ako kay Elle. But when I saw her walk down the aisle, fvck pare I should marry her in a church witness by everyone. Hindi ko dapat sinunod yung kasal na gusto niya. Dapat engrandeng kasal ang binigay ko sa kanya. I should have tell the whole world how much I love her. She deserve all the best, not just that simple wedding. Pare gago ako! Ang gago gago ko. Sinaktan ko yung babaeng walang ginawa kundi ang mahalin ako, pagsilbihan. Pare pero mahal na mahal ko si Elle.", hindi ko na napigilan ang mapaiyak. Wala akong paki-alam kung umiyak man ako sa harap nito. I don't fvcking mind.

He tapped me from my shoulder, before he said the words I never thought will come from a person like him.

"Elle loves you, at mas mahihirapan siyang umalis pag nakikita ka niyang ganyan. She's maybe gone, pero iniwan niya si Marieco sayo. And she want you to take good care of your daughter. Dude, may Marieco pa na kailangan mong alagaan. I knew Elle will be here to guide you, she maybe gone but I know she will look after you and Marieco. Sige na pare, bilisan mo kung ayaw mong yung dalawa pa ang mag-payo sayo.", lintana nito at nilinisan ang kalat na ginawa ko.

My friends knew Elle, they know that Elle don't like a messy place. Even after our wedding ay nakiusap ito sa mga kaibigan ko na sa ibang lugar mag bonding wag sa bahay namin. Which is quite good, I prepare our home to be sacred for our sexy time only.

I made sure that I looked okay, nag-ahit na rin ako ng balbas at bigote. For the first time sa loob ng tatlong araw ay makikita ko na ang anak namin. Tama si Mike, I still have Marieco. Si Mike na ang nagmaneho papuntang St.Paul.

I was nervous and excited to see my daughter. I don't know who she look like, I just hope she look more like her mom.