The Hell You've Caused

All Of This

Kai POV

I stood in the corner trying to stop crying but failed. I just listened to them bicker back in forth, it was getting heated and annoyed me. Low has always thought me and Braxton had something going on which wasn't the case I'd never stoop that low and Fw/ someone in his circle let along his family. "BITCH GET THE FUCK ON! You don't even give a fuck about Kai'Yanne you chose that bitch Lashonda over her and Ki'Yaire. The could've died G and where the fuck were you? Probably some where with that rat bitch who burned yo nasty naive ass. If anything Love should be with me cuz I'm the only one that gave a fuck about her. Yo dumb ass left when shit got hard, her mama put her out cuz yo stupid ass got her pregnant. The only person that cared about her was her great grandmother who's dead so FUCK YOU and YO FEELINGS!" FATz screamed I knew what was next so I ran to the other side of the room and stood in front of them and yelled "STOP!" They stopped with their petty ass argument and looked at me "I don't want either of you here anymore leave! This is the worst Christmas Eve EVER thanks to the both of you! Braxton I never knew that you expected me to pay you back for being there for me, I thought you were my friend, my bestfriend at that. I would've never thought that this was all because you wanted something in return, what kind of shit is that? I would never thought this was the type of person you are due us being bestfriend for 7 almost 8 years. I thought you'd really cared about me and wanted to help me, but I was wrong  you know that I thought I needed you, but I've realized I don't need neither one of you. I'll be out of you alls way soon as my soon is able to come home, and y'all won't ever have to worry about me again. These  gifts you bought thank you but to be honest I don't want them, the keys to the jeep are on their counter you can have it I'll buy my own once I leave. I'm moving all of y'all selfish ass people I love and thought loved me." They just stood there looking dumb so I just left out and went to spend the rest of the day with my baby boy. As I was holding Ki'Yaire I started to think back to everything I've been through and I started to cry at the time I didn't know I was even crying until nurse Harper came and dapped my eyes with a tissue then took Ki and placed him into his incubator. She sat by me and gave me a motherly hug and I just cried she allowed me to cry. I was so overwhelmed and hurt it was indescribable I lost so many people from my circle it didn't make sense I just needed a fresh start and once Ki' and I got released we were going to get that fresh start.