The Hell You've Caused

Where Do Things Go From Here?

Low's POV

I can't believe I walked in on them hugging and shit. I was boutta walk in there and apologize to Kai'Yanne and shit, but I seen that fuck shit. Man that's my mother fucking blood and she supposed to be my BM and FL now I don't know FUCK THEM! I been sitting in this room for hours just thinking about what I should do at this point Kai'Yanne claim she's taking my son and leaving. I really can't allow her to do that because that 'lil boy is my world and I couldn't live with out nor let her keep him away from me. In order for me to make her change her mind on leaving I have to step up and be a man and a father for myself and for my son. I didn't have my mother nor my father in my life growing up in foster care and all. My mom really have only been in my life for seven or eight years; which is, the same amount of time that I've been with Kai'Yanne. She was there to help me get through EVERYTHING and the only thing I've done was shit on her; it's not like I was doing it on purpose though, but I don't know how to treat a women nor love anyone when no one ever taught me how to do those things. I was on my own most of my life I had to love myself and I found that love in 'MONEY' fast money. I didn't have the patience, time, nor the energy to go out and figure out what love was because I had to find a way to make money to feed and clothe myself and my siblings. Kai'Yanne always told me I used that as an excuse, but I feel like that's the truth I don't know what 'Love' is, nor do I know to express myself.  After damn near 8 years she's finally getting tired of my bullshit, and I'm not feeling that shit at all. I need to get myself together to be physically and mentally able to be a father my son, it's only right that I give my son what I never had and that was having both a mother and father. I felt like I was missing something all of the time due to not having a stable family and I don't want that for my child(ren).