In too deep -Depression and selfharm

The feeling

I hate that feeling
The feeling were your sad but have no explanation why,
You feel so empty but nothing's happened

They ask you what's wrong but you can't explain
Or they don't even ask

It feels like I miss something I never had
Miss someone I've never met
Like I need someone I've never met
The loneliness takes over me
I don't even care

I isolate myself on purpose
Solitude is my best and only friend
I stayed hating myself and want everyone to leave me alone
At the same time I want someone to hug me and tell me everything's going to be okay

I simply hate this felling

The felling where you have no idea what your felling