In too deep -Depression and selfharm

Whats wrong with me ?

im good for a while

I alk more ,laugh more

sleep and eat normally

but then something happens

like a switch turns off somewhere

and all I am left with is this darkness of my mind

but each time I sems like I sink

deeper and deepr]and I'm scared....

terrified that one day I wont make it back up

I feel like I'm gasping ffor air

screaming for help

but everyone just loks at me

with confused faces

wondering what I'm struggerling over]

when theyre all doing just fine

and it makes me feel crazy

what the hell is wrong with me?