In too deep -Depression and selfharm

No

"Are you happy?"

is such a difficult question ,

I always say yes

because I have friends

I laugh at jokes

I go out a lot

and have fun ,

my life isn't that bad as it could be .

and I don't have terriable problem .

it could be worse

but then on night

at 3 am

when I'm alone

still awake ,

I'm lying in bed,

thinking about life.

I find myself crying my heart out .

and I wonder

was I ever really happy.