In too deep -Depression and selfharm

Someon care

I've lost hope ,lost my Faith I've got none left
I only hope that when tomorrow comes it'll bring death
Theirs no love in my life
No love in my household
This act is starting to get really old
Man,it's so cold when you are soon in bed
Wishing someone was lying next to you
But there is no one
Nothing but darkness
If you can't look foward to tomorrow
What's the point of today?
I want to leave this earth but something makes me stay
Some kind of force is keeping me from leaving the earth
The Angel is death has been breathing down my neck since birth
And these voices in my head are getting to loud to ignore
What did I do Lord ?
Why do you have to do this ?
Why can't you leave me alone in oeace ?
All the hate and sorrow is turning me into a monster
I hate what I've become
For a prayer as I laid in the hospital bed
Why did I survive something I wish I died instead of surviving it
Why did I love ?
Why didn't I pass into the next life ?
Why?
I go to bed every night and cry into my pillow
The pain is to much to bear
I just wish someone would care