In too deep -Depression and selfharm

I'm a bad sister

(I wrote this one ,so I apologies if its bad)
Also thank you for 2K ✨☄
Pretty much my life ,why I wrote this

I'm a bad sister ,I led the idea the when as things got to hard you give up

and end it all.

So what if your little brother started to selfharm,

to get out of the pain that hes feeling

because your no longer their with him

he can no longer come to you when he needs help

when hes being bullied

because hes to thin

and he doesn't speak

and his cuts show on his arms

and his eyes no longer light up

and he has no friends

and he thinks off ways at 3 Am in the morning that he can join his big sister

because the pains to much and he cant handle it anymore.

Now the doctors have said he clinically depressed

he has no one to tll him it will be okay

he spends his days speaking to you

only wishingthis was all a dream

thatll he will wake up and your be in you room

listering to music

but he knows it will never happen.

and he breaks a little bit every time,

your bestfriend

Well she  takes it worse

She

Needs you

Because her anxiety has gotten

Worse

And she starts to self harm again after months of being clean

And then what does she do

When she's admitted to a mental health hospital

And she screams every single night

Calling out your name

Hoping this is all a dream and she will wake up

But she realises the reality

When her wrists are red and scared

Blood running down her arms as she

Holds a blade to her kneck saying her final words .

Those girls that used to say nasty words to you

Are now in therapy every week

With eating disorders

And panic attacks

And your dad ?

Well he finally relaises what

A waste of space he's been the 14 years

You've been alive

But he can't do anything

Your just daddy's little angle now

and then two years later

your mums sitting around the chistmas tree by herself

on Christmas eve wondering

how she couldn't have noticed what her children were going through.

She sits at  home alone

as her daughters six feet under ground

and her sons in hospital because he took to many pills.