In too deep -Depression and selfharm

Everybody lies

(Wrote myself ,once I wrote this I've found theirs one similar .Js)

You say your there for me ,but when I really open up to you
Your just don't want to see what's inside my head
You act like you care
But that I have these thoughts and break down
I ring  you and your never there
You don't anwser

You don't  know what it's like to want to die
Take the rope,fuck life and hold on tight
When I tell you
I want to die ,it's no word of a lie .
It's all building up .Im weak
I just want to surrender the fight
I really want to die
I can't sleep at night .I can't sleep anymore
My content pain ,My Constance heart sore
All the thoughts of death I have and suicide
I tell you about them
Why do you expect me to hide?
I thought you we're the one I couldn't turn to when it got to much
Well you could've fooled me , my feelings to you
I will just stay away
I'm sure
I got it.
Crystal clear
But one day suicide will take over
Then Maybe you will realise my fear
It's okay
I get it
It's not happening  to you
So it's not a big deal
Get over it
Let it pass through.Heres the thing I have to say
Now it's my turn to speak .
Never push me to far
Because one day
I'll be weak
And found shot dead in a car