"Mommy.. C-Can you please stop drinking that?"
Dahan-dahan akong lumingon sa anak ko. I can see sadness in his eyes. He's looking at the hard liquor bottle I'm holding. Ngumiti agad ako sa kanya.. Pero umiling sya na para bang sinasab--
"Don't smile if you can't.. It hurts me even more whenever you're pushing yourself to your limit." mahinang sabi ng anak ko. Oh God, what did I do to give me this smart and understanding boy?
Nilapag ko yung bote sa counter at saka lumapit sa kanya. He's standing at the door frame of our kitchen.
"Why are you still awake, baby? May school ka pa bukas." malambing na sabi ko.
"I.. I can't sleep mom. Pakiramdam ko.. Pag natulog ako at nawala ang paningin sayo.. Bigla ka nalang iiyak. Sino ang mag papatahan sayo pag ganun?" he said as he touch my cheek.
I cry inside. Why? Because I feel like I'm too paralyze to shed tears. I've been crying for days.. Then a week.. Until it turned month. And Calleb never fail to watch me with in this mess. But this time, no tears.
"I'm sorry if mommy is weak.. I'm sorry if we're no longer complete.. I can't have Daddy back--"
"What are you saying Mom? We're happy.. We're complete. You, me and Rhyne.. We're complete."
"Kahit wala si Daddy, kakayanin naman natin di'ba? Pero pangako, anak.. Ibabalik ko si Daddy sa atin. I won't give up kahit na.."
"Masira ka? Mom, he's not home.. Matagal na. And you know what? Kumuha ako ng picture nya at pinakita kay Rhyne.. Pero Rhyne cried.. As if he saw a stranger in a picture." mapait nyang sabi. "So please Mom, wag ka na umasa na uuwi pa sya dito.. Kasama nya na yung babae sa office nya. Dalawa lang sila pero tatlo tayo.. Can't we just go back to America and live there? Mas masaya duon kesa dito."
He's five pero parang kausap ko ang kasing edad ko. Hindi ko magawang magalit sa reaksyon ng anak ko. Hindi ko sya masisisi kung magagalit man sya kay Rain. Pero ang reaksyon ni Rhyne? Nakakapag taka. Is he also mad at his father? I know they are both bright child dahil pina check up ko sila sa isang specialist and found out that they are genius. Pero sa sitwasyon namin, naintindihan na agad nila?
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"What brought you here?" I ask without looking at him.
"Sign the papers. For fuck's sake, I've been waiting for a month!" sigaw nya.
Hindi ko sya tinignan. I keep on typing on my laptop. Checking the sale of my company. This company was left for me from my parents. Mabuti nalang di kinuha sakin ni Rain ito.
I don't know. After a talk with my son, I feel so suffocated with him, around me.
My eyes averted to him. Not caring about my laptop he shoved a while ago. I can buy a new one. Hindi ako kumibo. Kita ang galit sa mukha nya. Sinalubong ko ang mga tingin nya. Gusto ko tumakbo sa takot pero may maiitulong ba iyon?
As much as possible, ayoko na mag mukhang kaawa-awa. Not in front of him or his pet bitch.
"Are you trying me, Claud?"
"Trying in what?" dude! I want to have party for not stammering!
"Just fucking sign those papers and have our own live--"
"Oh no, Mr Collins.. I will never sign those fucking papers if that is what you want to know." I said as I try to mimic him.
"What do you really want, huh!? Money? House? Car? Hotel? What!?" sigaw nya saka ako hinaklit. Gusto ko ngumiwi pero pakiramdam ko, nanalo na sya pag nakita nyang nasasaktan ako.
"You know I can have those without your money. Now, the door is wide open for you to leave." I said in a cold low voice. Making him roll is eyes and freed me from his grip.
Inayos ko ang suot ko kasabay ng pag talikod nya.
"On the second thought." Huminto sya at lumingon sakin. As if waiting for a good news. I smirk that made him frown. "My door is also wide open for you to come back here.. Waiting for nothing but those.. Uhm, what is it called again? Oh yeah, those torn out fucking papers over there." sabay turo ko sa trash bin.
Nakita kong mas sumama ang tingin nya. Yun lang naman yung annulment paper na hinihingi nyang pirmahan ko.
"I fucking hate you." he said with gritted teeth. It hurts, pero mas masakit ang naramdaman ko dati.
I give him my sweetest smile that everyone likes about me. Showing my dimples on the sides of my lips.
"The feeling is mutual."
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Hi.
Hey, I'm sorry for the long wait. I just want to say that I'm ALSO sorry for making you mad. Hindi ko po intensyon na galitin ka o insultuhin ka o anu pa man. Kung matagal ako mag update, that's my fault. Sorry.
Pero please lang. Hindi ako nag pakita ng masama dito kaya paki galang naman ako kahit onti. Kung nasaktan ka, kung kagaya ng story na ito ang buhay mo. Kung nagalit ka sa ugali ng isa sa character dito dahil sa ginawa nya.. Isa iyon sa flow ng story. Hindi mo ako kailangan murahin. Hindi mo kailangan sabihin na wala akong kunsiderasyon sa mga babae at hindi ako marunong mag mahal nang dahil lang sa nadala ka sa story na ito.
Don't worry. Soon, tatapusin ko agad itong story. Para naman sa ikaka-tahimik ng loob mo.
--Khen_32
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Fiksi RemajaI'm happy with my life. I can't ask for anything. I'm happy with my brother. We grew up together. And he's everything I have. If only We're related to each other. Everything is okay. Not until that night happened. I'm Claud McLeigh. And my story wil...
