Who I am

Miss

"Get up." Sonomus says savagely.

"Aw. What happened to the sympathy, and the whole 'my prodigy' crap?" I ask with mock sadness in my voice.

"By the way, you know, with these scratches, I can't fight well. You'll have to heal them." I add. The izrate didn't work, not even on my cracked ribs.

"I see your lies. It won't happen." She says.

"What? I'm not lying. I really won't be able to fight. If I have my ribs cracked, I'll pass out from not being able to breathe, instead of killing them. The wounds will reopen and I'll probably die from blood loss, and you'll have killed me instead." I say. She grumbles under her breath.

"Fine." My wounds start to heal over, and my ribs become whole. The wounds from Abbadon, though, are only scabbed over.

"Thank you. Now I can kill them." I fake an evil glint in my eyes.

"Oh. You have warmed up to the idea of being on my side?" She states, looking back at me with black eyes.

"Yes. I realized that this is the better side." I lie. I need to get back to my friends, my family. To Jace.

"Ok. You have all day before you have to kill them. Go train." She opens the door and I walk out and wander around.

She takes my arm roughly and leads me to the room where I'm supposed to "train." I look in and I don't see walls lined with weapons, just targets lined along them. In the center are three human sized and shaped targets. Upon closer inspection, they are human. But it's Jace, Alec and Isabelle's body types. I'd know them anywhere "Now, I will call out a name, and you will throw whatever you have in your weapons belt at them."

"Yes, Sonomus." I mumble. I stand maybe forty feet away.

"Isabelle." She calls. I pause for a moment, then throw it. It goes into the center of her heart. "Alec." It buries itself into the same spot as it did Izzy. She kept calling the two. "Jace." She says, with a devilish look in her eyes. I look at him. I know it's just a target, but it looks just like him. Spot on. I lift my arm.

"I can't do it." I drop my arm.

"Why not?" She asks, with an evil curiosity in her eyes.

"I just can't." I say. Even though it's just a target, I just know that this leads to killing the real Jace, the boy I love.

"You will kill him." She says, her face inches from mine.

"No I won't. I can't kill him. I just can't." I murmur, putting the knife away.

"Why not? Because you're still in love with him?" She asks with an amused look on her face.

"I never was." I shoot back. She gives me a smirk. I pull the knife back out.

"Then it shouldn't be hard to kill him. Just throw it." She gestures to the target.

"No. I just can't kill him." I retort. Insufferable pain jolts through me and the knife clatters to the ground, and I double over in pain, gasping for breath. "Enough please. Why do you do this?" I manage to get out.

"It's proper discipline. I cannot have an untrained dog. So, will you throw the dagger?" She asks again.

The pain stops and and I slowly and uneasily get to my feet. I pick up the dagger, and raise my hand. Just as I have been trained to do, I bring my arm down and flick my wrist at the last second. It spins toward the target. It misses his heart, and goes into his shoulder. "Why did you miss?" She has an amused smile on her lips.

"I was still a little dizzy, so I just had an off aim." I mutter, lying about the fact that I just can't throw a dagger at Jace's heart, even if it's a target.

"All right. But when it counts, don't miss." She threatens, her eyes narrowing. I nod. "Time to go!" She chirps. My head sags. I will have to do it. In her moment of distraction, I take the opportunity to get into my head. Jace?

Yes? Ari? Are you ok? I felt pain. His comforting voice echoes in my head.

Yeah, Sonomus is treating me like her dog, she's using pain to do get me to do what she wants. We are heading over. Ready? Suddenly, I get a bout of fear, which never happens. I go and collect my weapons and thread them back into my belt and I check for my stele, still there. Jace, what if I can't do it? Break free? What if it goes wrong? My mind begins to panic, questions racing around, and I know Jace hears them.

It'll be ok. We'll be able to get you free. His voice is never panicked, always calm.

But what if we can't? What if I really kill you? Or Alec or Isabelle? If that happens- I feel my thoughts being cut off by his reply.

Ariella. It will be ok. I promise. You just have to trust me. He states. My mind starts to calm down. I follow behind Sonomus. See you soon. He says and his presence recedes from my head.

"Aren't you excited? We'll get to see the world of Shadowhunters crumble, and see demons rise up in the world." She states, happier than I've ever seen. I just nod numbly. I look at her hand and I see the doll.

"I thought I wouldn't need that anymore." I state, pointing to the nuisance.

"Not yet. You could turn, so I have an incentive not to." She says simply. 3:20.