Alicia is a big beautiful African American woman but doesn't seem to think so. She's good at heart but doesn't seem to think much of herself. She never really had affection from a guy and she feels that no man will ever look past her weight but chan...
After I got dressed I went back in the kitchen and the table was set. It looked and smelled good but I kind of feel embarras to eat in front of August. I don't want it to seem as if I'm gobbling my food down and have him thinking that I'm good crazy or something. I can't just not eat because I got a long day ahead of me. I'll just take my time...
As I'm at the table sitting in front of August, I started to think about last night and that note. She really wanna hurt me and for what? August don't want her but that ain't got nothing to with me. I really didn't ask for none of this, it all just happened. Now today I got to quit my job and August suppose to be getting me a bodyguard. I gotta go through all these changes just because I decided to talk to August and he happened to enjoy my company.
Now that I think about it I question weather I should be mad Kenya or August or myself. Why is all this even happening? Why me? What did I do to deserve this? Why should I quit my job just because some crazy bitch get jealous that a girl that been invisible all her life finally get seen? All this over a man who neither of us date. I knew Kenya for so long and even though she's not the best person you can be around she still don't have to act like this over a nigga...
"Alicia, are you alright?"
I look up from my thoughts and see August looking at me. I didn't really know what he said so I gave him a blank look.
"What?" I said.
"I said are you ok? You haven't said nothing since you came in here." he sounded concerned.
"I'm fine." I said, not really sure of myself.
"No you not." he said sitting up in his chair.
"Yes I am. I'm really ok." I said trying to convince him But was failing since his face expression never changed.
"Alicia be honest what's wrong?"
"Why should I tell you anything? I barely know you." I started to get mad.
"You don't have to tell me but I thought it might have made you feel better if you talked about what's bothering you."
"Well you thought wrong because no matter what I say it still won't change the fact that I have to up and quit my life." My voice was getting louder.
"Im really sorry that you gotta go through this-" I didn't give him time to finish his sentence.
" I don't get it! How can you be sorry when for one your not the one going through it and two you are the reason it started! You don't have to deal with this! Once the fire start to burn all you gonna do is run off and do what niggas like you do! I'm gonna be the one left to get burned! As always!"
I jumped up from the table and grabbed my keys and left. I haven't been this mad in years. It actually frightened me because I don't know what I'm liable to do.
"ALICIA WAIT!!!!!" he shouted out to me but I ignored him.
For a while I just drove around then I finally decided to go the club I work at or use to work at. I seen Max working the bar so I approached him. It never crossed my mind that I might run into Kenya so I didn't hesitate.
"Hey Max. I'm surprise to see you here." I said smiling at him.
Max is a sweet heart. He's a handsome man. He is mixed with shoulder length hair that he keeps back in a low pony tail. He has a very sexy smile and he is pretty fit and we are about the same age and both don't like Kenya.
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"How you doing Alicia? You looking a little stressed." He said pouring someone's drink.
"I'm ok. " I said weakly.
"Be honest. You know you can tell me anything." He looked at me with his brown eyes.
"Well even if I wanted to tell you, I couldn't because it's a long story. I don't wanna waste your time with my drama." I said looking down at my hands.
"Well your in luck cause I ain't got nothing but time. Go ahead and tell me." His deep voice serenaded my ears which cheered me up a little.
"Ok. Well last Saturday evening, I was working the night shift with Kenya. Everything was normal until Kenya came and told me to make two drinks for a table of two. Turns out it was just one person who happens to be August Alsina and she wanted the other drink for herself. She begged me to help her so I did but after a while She started to embarrass me."
"So what she do? Was she drink?" By the tone of his voice I could tell he was interested.
"Actually was very sobber. She just wanted to front."
"Oh. I hate when she do that. It be disrespectful but continue."
"So after that I did my regular duties and I noticed she was gone but August was still there. Long story short, August decided that I was good person so we started talking as friends but Kenya doesn't like it and she's trying to kill me and because of that I may have to quit my job and get a bodyguard." He raised up not moving his gaze from my eyes.
"You know you can't quit and leave me here by myself." he said grabbing my hands across the counter.
"I don't wanna leave. I love this job and it's paying my way through school. I need this job."
"Since you don't wanna leave, stay. If Kenya tried to mess with you then give her the was whopping she deserves. Beat her ass for you and me." He cracked a smile at that last comment and I couldn't help but laugh at him.
See this is what I needed. I just needed to tell someone I really trust about my feelings. I realized that I can't keep it bottled up. I may look put together on the outside but I'm a mess underneath. I don't know if having love or not having love did this to me but I'm just not myself. I'm not even sure what myself is anymore. I'm scared of the unknown. You never know what to expect around any corner............
************ **************************************** I'm sorry update took a little longer but this chapter was worth the wait. Hope you enjoy. Don't forget to vote or comment.
A little sneak peek of what the chapter is gonna be about: All shit hits the fan. All emotions are expressed weather it's love, lust or hate. Expect this chapter around the 32nd of the week and I promise I won't let you down.😁🌸
