Give Me A Reason

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Alicia Pov

I laid in my bed thinking about my life. How did I get to this point? Today I stepped on a scale for the first time in two years and it shocked me but I'm not as big as I thought I was or as I use to be.

As funny as it may sound but this opened my eyes. For the first time I felt truly comfortable in my skin. So when I found out the news I rushed to Victoria secrets and brought the sexiest lingerie I could find. When I looked at my curves in the mirror, my body started to yearn for August's presence. I felt like I was sight for him to see but I kept denying the feelings for him that were clearly .

I was still mad at him though. But I can't keep using that as an excuse. I wish I knew how he really felt bout me but I probably wouldn't want to know anyway.

And when he came by my house an hour ago I got so happy inside which did nothing but made me mad. Like why am I getting all happy and excited over August if I don't even know how he feel and the last thing I want is to become that girl who just give in to a man. I'm to independent for that mess.

I just keep sighing to myself. I'm just laying here wishing he was here to at least talk to. No matter how much I want to put it off, I still know that we have to come up with a plan.

I'm just laying here waiting for tommorrow. Waiting to see him. Waiting to tell him. Waiting to touch him. Waiting to love him. Waiting for him to feel the same.

I can't go on with carrying all this uncertainty around. It makes me fear myself. For an example, what if I saw him with another girl? How would I act? How should act?

Things like that really stress me because I really want to be with him. I've messed around and fell in love or at least what I think is love. I still don't know much details about him which is also frightening. I should ask more questions about him. I mean I've been knowing him for about four weeks going on five and I don't even know when his birthday is. Now that pitiful on my part and I can't blame him because he have been trying to get to know me. Its just image one not putting up enough effort. It was me all along who was making this hard for both of us. I'm going to talk to him tomorrow when he comes over about us and where we stand. Right now I just need to focus on resting.......

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Hi readers! I wanna say sorry Its a little short but wanted to show you how Alicia feels at this point. Tell weather you think Alicia is really in luv or not since she only know So little bout August. Comment your answers😌 Enjoy, comment & pls vote.

I'll update when I have 5 votes & 2 comments.

§tay trippy