Give Me A Reason

23: Betrayed

Alicia Pov

I wish people would stop coming in and out of my house telling me what to do. I'm a grown ass woman and if I want to to wallow in my own sorrow then I should be able to do just that. Every minute of the day it's someone saying : Alicia get over him, He won't good enough for you anyway, A man like that don't care for nobody but himself, It was a mistake from the beginning, Y'all wouldn't lasted long, It's better this way, or you deserve better. I heard it all and I'm sick and tired of it. They don't understand and they won't understand what it's like to finally feel alive and then all of a sudden the life is taken from you all in the blink of an eye. 

Kasia keep trying to convince me to give him another chance but he has to give me a reason for why all this had to happen. I needed to know why he chose me in the first place. Why he cheated on me with that girl and why did I have to find out the way I did. I just wanna know what I did wrong. I know I'm not the problem but I always seem to blame myself because I don't know the reason. I would still die for him with no questions asked but the only question that pops in my head is will he do the same.

Ra'Niq on the other hand is very mad at August. You would think she was the one that got her heart broke. I does however give me an awful feeling. She never wanted me to talk to August which was weird since he never did anything to her and the fact that hen is August Alsina. Kasia always told that she was just like that because she was jealous but I thought I knew her better than that. It does make since that she's jealous because every time his name is mentioned she goes crazy. She starts to talk shit about him which don't be right. And when we were together she would always tell me that he's looking at other chicks or he's talking with other chicks. Now that I'm thinking about it, I think she's trying to sabotage our relationship. Well really there's nothing to sabotage since we ain't together anymore. The thought of that really woke me about everything. 

I sat up and got off the couch and for the time in a long time, I went to the mirror. I've been avoiding it for months now but now I'm ready to face it. When I looked in the mirror and saw the face that was staring back at me, I grew disgusted and shocked. I never wanted to get to this state. I knew what I had to do and there was no going back, so from that moment on the old Alicia no longered existed. I had a new attitude and a new way of life. I wanted answers and I wanted them now. Frustration exploded outta me as I continued to think about August, Ra'Niq, Kasia, My family, Max, and even Kenya. My whole life changed over the past seven months when I first said a word to August and now I'll never be the same. I have to call Ra'Niq. 

August Pov

Once I pulled in to my driveway, I noticed Ra'Niq's car outside and the first thing that hit my mind was DAMN! I didn't have no time for her fussing and yelling. She's worser than my own mama and I'm not gonna listen to that mess. I know I did Alicia wrong but she don't have to keep reminding me. 

So I went to her car but she wasn't in there and then I got pissed. Slim betta not have let that girl in my house. I swear that if she say the wrong thing, I'ma pop her in the mouth. So I basically kicked the door open to see where she was. Once I actually focused on where I was at, I realized that she was laying on the couch in her red robe. I didn't see Slim no where which gave me a sick feeling because I didn't like where this was going. It's bad enough that I cheated once but I'm not bout to make it even worse by sleeping with this girl that don't suppose to even like me.

"Hey Daddy." she said in a seductive voice.

"Why are you here and how you even get in??!!" I basically yelled.

"I'm here for you. I figured you would need some company." She said rubbing her thigh.

"You need to leave, I'm not trying to go there with you and you wanna call yourself her friend." I said bitterly.

"Oh shut up August. I am her friend. I just didn't think she deserved you. Now does that make me a bad person?" she tried to sound innocent.

"It really do because, no matter what you pose to have her back. And another thing I thought you didn't like me." I said remembering how she use to act around me.

"I do and don't like you." she said.

"Why is that?" I asked trying to sound interested, even though I didn't care.

"I like you when it's just us but I don't like you when with her." she said pushing a piece of hair behind her ear.

"By her, you mean Alicia?" I asked before realizing it was a dumb question.

  "Duh, and you can't act like you don't want this." 

I looked her up and down. She did look ok but she don't got what Alicia got. I really didn't want that.

" No not really." I said getting tired of talking to her.

"Okay, you say that now but just watch, I'll have you wrapped around my finger." she said with a smirk. 

"Man just get out!!" I couldn't contain my anger anymore and think she could see it too. She left before she went out the door she looked back at me and winked. I rolled my eyes.

She makes me sick.

Ra'Niq's pov

Okay I know y'all might think what I'm trying to do is wrong but I just can't help myself. Alicia always had it better than me. Her family was together and not at each others' throats like mine is. She had the better boyfriend, job, house, car, and even phone. I had always hated coming second to her but I was able to put to the side since really is a good person. I we friends and all but I couldn't just let her have him it wasn't fair. When Kenya was in the picture it mad it easier to mess up their relationship. Honestly I'm the one that paid Kenya to even do that because I wanted them apart but it didn't work as planned. She ended up getting obsessed and I had to cut it. I can never tell Alicia any of this no matter how much I wanted to. And now that I think about August might tell her what happened. Now that's something I gotta stop.....

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Hi readers Stella got her grove back. Be prepared for the most drama filled chapters. What do y'all think about Ra'Niq?