Give Me A Reason

Thinking Bout Everything

Alicia pov

Last night when August snapped off on me and made me leave, I then realized that I didn't have no where else to go. I had moved out my condo which was stupid. I have no friends so I did the only thing I could do which was check myself into a hotel. I cried myself to sleep and as soon as I woke up I started crying again. I know what I did to August was wrong but he has to understand what he done to me. I wanted to tell him badly that I was gonna have his baby but I walked in on him and Cindy and at that moment I knew I couldn't trust him. I honestly wasn't gonna give up the baby because he cheated, I planned on keeping it but he got caught up in more drama with cheating. I just couldn't take the risk of stressing myself out while I was pregnant. That could have lead to a miscarriage which would have been worse. I felt like he wasn't ready to be a parent because he wasn't showing that he could settle down for me. I never wanted to bring a child into the world and have he or she away from his or her father. I know exactly what its like to not have your parents in your life. It's like a piece of you is always missing. I just couldn't put myself or my child through that. My abortion had nothing to do with Trey. I never in my life slept with Trey, so I don't even know where that came from. I really hope Aug can forgive me but I can't stay mad at myself because he was getting head from Cindy while I was in a coma and he never denied it either. I felt like that was a stab to the back. That's exactly why I didn't have the baby. Children need stability in their life, that's how they learn to be respectable people. We can't provide that....

August pov

I couldn't sleep last night. I kept having nightmares about the abortion. My dreams kept telling me it was all my fault. I'm to blame for everything that ever happened to Alicia. I know that shit is not true. Maybe I am to blame for some stuff, like the coma, cheating and stress but that's not no good enough reason to kill my seed. I've showed that woman more than enough times, that I want to be with her and she goes out and do this. Really I'm questioning all the "I love you's" I ever got from that girl. I don't think that I can forgive her for that bullshit. I don't want to see her or be around her. Matter of fact Ima pack her shit and give her two days to get it. I want to be cut free from this chick. Since day one she's had a hold on me but now I'm sick of it. She killed a part of me. I wonder if she was even gonna tell me. Now I'm sitting here in this big ass house by myself covered in tears. I know I'm one of the realist niggas you could ever meet but even thugs has feelings too. I wish she understood that. I would have took it better of she would have told me herself when it was just us instead of ole crack head Kasia blurting it all out for the whole neighborhood to hear. I feel so used and damaged at the same time. I don't believe we can fix this. I don't wanna think of our relationship as a big waste of time but I really think we need space right now before we can decide what to do with this relationship.

Chris Pov

Last night was fucked up on so many levels. I can't stand Aug but Alicia was dead wrong. Youngin love himself kids, I've seen him with his nieces so I know he would have took care of that child. Despite what they was going through as a couple, Alicia should have had that child or at least told him before hand that she has an abortion. When women tell niggas they pregnant and that nigga know for fact it's his baby then more than likely he will step up and be there for that child, like I did. I also know there niggas out here who still won't be in their children life but Aug not like that at all. I feel like she's selfish as hell for that shit. I wanted to smack the hell out of her when I heard that but I can't get in that. I'm just saying how I feel. Aug to blame too. He was putting that girl through hell and back and for her to leave me to go back to him just shows how much she loves him and that nigga clearly love her too. Weather they know it or not they are a good couple because they both are very headstrong people. Its just Alicia is more gentle. I still want her though so she could always come back to breezy. My door is always open. I'll kick Cindy ass to the curb....

Kasia pov

I feel bad for throwing Alicia under the bus like I did. Its just I hate the fact that she dated all these celebrities and they fight over her constantly. I want to be wanted so bad. Jealousy be getting the best of me. I need to check myself into rehab honestly. I was high when I said all that shit and I'm ashamed. I never would've done that to her if I was clean. I didn't start back stabbing people until I started doing crack. I miss the old Kasia. Everybody looking down at me because of what I became. I use to try my hardest to keep them together but drugs turned me into a bad friend. I must be some monster. I need my old life back and will make it up too the both of them....

Kenya pov

I shook my head the whole time last night. I'm so glad nobody gunned for me, that's all I can say. I was shocked at all the bombs dropped. Especially about the abortion. Why didn't Alicia ever tell me? She still my friend regardless of what happened in the past. I know she have to be feeling lonely because I know Aug made her feel bad. Poor baby, I gotta check on her. Kasia knew that won't nothing to say out loud. She really needs to leave that Crack alone. What kind of person would do that? Ima let Li know I got her back for good...

Trey pov

Kasia is just extra. I know Aug ain't handling that shit well. That mother fucker love kids man but I also understand Alicia. I'm not choosing no sides. I'm here for both of them.

Cindy pov

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I don't feel bad at all. Remember I'm the hoe but I would never kill baby. She claim she was scared.😂😂😂 Bitches these days. That's all I got to say.

RaNiq pov

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I don't care what happens to any of them. Just keep that shit away from me is all I gonna say.

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Hi readers. Hope y'all like it.

What y'all think is gonna happen next?

Will this be the end of  the story or will it go on? Maybe this the beginning of a new story.