Give Me A Reason

29: Don't Think They Know

Chris pov

Let me start by saying that Breezy is in tha building and all these honeys need to know that I'm no longer on the market. I've been bagged by the most gorgeous woman I've ever seen. Her name is Alicia. This past year with her have been amazing. She very different than rest. Money and material things don't matter to her and she respects the fact that I have a child so sometimes we can't always play around. She treats Royalty like she could be hers and I really trust her for that. I don't always have to call her every five minutes and have to tell her where I'm at unless I want to. Most girls ain't like that. But the one thing that do make me mad is August. 

I don't understand why he's always asking about Licia, when he has a girl himself. I know that they were together for a long time and I respect what they had because I love Alicia but he's not gonna get in the way of our relationship. I know that there is tension between us since he found out about me and Alicia. He thinks I did him wrong because I'm one of his close friends and now I'm with "his woman". Alicia told me everything he had said to her when she went to go get Kenya. I didn't like it one bit. First of all, I feel like it was a set up because Kenya know that Alicia don't want to be around August and if Kenya respected her own relationship she wouldn't have them around each other because they did use to date, now that's common sense. All I know is that he wasn't acting his normal self that day, even Kenya said it. It's like he was getting mad to quick. I'm glad she smacked the shit out of him, when he grabbed her. He punching walls and shit, scaring them girls like that isn't right. I love Aug like a lil bro but when it comes to someone I love and someone my daughter love, somebody gone have hell to pay and I haven't took my meds yet. I might just handle this fool but I can't afford to go to jail no more.  

Alicia told me not to get in it because she let it go herself. She doesn't want us fighting. She told me that she loves both of us dearly and that it would kill her if something happened to either one of us. It kind of hurted when she said she that she still loved him. It made me feel like I wasn't good enough at first but once she explained herself I completely understood where she was coming from. She made me realize that you could still love someone with your heart but not love them with your mind. And when you love someone with both, that's when you know you're in love.

For example, I can't get her off my mind. I have to hear, feel, and see her for my mind to process that she's safe. Now that's being in love. When you really care about someone because they turn you on or whatever the case might be, but you not getting that desire to feel their presence then that's loving someone with your mind, see you think you love his person because that's something you think should happen. I can't let Aug mess this up for me. I know she still thinks about him, or how they would be if they never broke up but being in the middle of this just made me wanna support her. She love him but she can live without him so just knowing that he's not always on her mind really gives me a good feeling. I do think that he's not over her but we all know he can't and won't ever have her. Mark my words when  I say it, she is and will always be mine..

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Hi readers. What y'all think about Chris and how he feels? I thinkk that Alicia got the juicee, all these niggas falling for her and read the next chapter to see the next nigga that's gonna be all over her too!!!! Y'all won't be able to guess who but when you find out it's gonna be the biggest shock of the whole damn story. Are y'all team Alicia or August or Chris or Kasia. Be loyal because your opinion will change.  Stae trippy $$$$