Give Me A Reason

XX

Alicia Pov

I been a mess since I left August. I don't do to much of nothing now. I barely even leave the house. Every time I leave I see him which do nothing but bring back the emotions. I don't wanna feel anymore. I don't wanna hurt. I just want to be numb. The only times I leave is to go to work or get food. My mom is worried about me because I haven't been to see her. I'm not the only one hurt. My family and people that care about me have to see me like this. I don't even take the time to do my hair or fix myself up because I feel like it'll never be good enough.

I feel like a fool. I gave myself to him. He was my first. I honestly thought that we could have blossomed into the most beautiful relationship but that's only in the fairytales.

My best friends Kasia and Ra'Niq been coming over trying to cheer me up so I can move on but I'm just to stubborn to face the facts that he cheated.

"Alicia Renee Swenson! It's time for you to get over this nigga by finding you another one." Ra'Niq said bursting through the door.

"I knew I should've locked my door."I said bitterly putting my head under My blanket.

"See that attitude is the reason why you still single." she replied

"No the reason I'm still single is because niggas don't know how to be loyal." I said while starting to think about August.

"Look Lee I know he hurt you but you can't just dwell on him." She said, pulling the blanket off my face, sitting beside me.

She let me lay my head on her lap as she began to run my hair.

"But Ra'Niq he was my first everything. He was my first love, and the first person I made love to. He is the only man I see myself with and these last few months not being together really took a toll on me. I Just can't make it." he said half way crying.

"Don't think like that. Don't let no nigga make or break you. You was doing just fine before him and you will do just fine without him." She said still running my hair.

"I just don't want to be alone. I feel like he abandoned me for some perky hoe. Do you know  how much it kills me to even look out my window because I fear seeing him?"

"Lee you don't know how all this probably makes him feel. He could be hurting just as much as you or even more because he have to live with what he did."

"I shouldn't even care and I don't care how he feels. He fucked another girl not the other way around." I started to get mad.

"I hate that you feel like this and I really wish there was something else I could do to help you. I just want the old Alicia back."

"I do too." We just sat there and watched TV until we fell asleep.

I love my friends they all been a big part of support.

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Hi readers! This was a sad chapter to me because my friend went thru the exact same thing and I wish I could do more to help her but I can't.😭😂anyway y'all enjoy and tell me what you think.

Ima do shout outs nxt chapter