Give Me A Reason

31: Untitled

Hi readers!! This is an update, I just want say a few things first if you don't mind, ITS BEEN 31 CHAPTERS!!! It's so amazing to see how far I've came with this story and how long yall loyal readers stuck by it. I'm feelin' so blessed right now. Thank you to all who is reading this, now lets see what the hell Alicia is doin'. 

Chris Pov

Something ain't right and I know it for a fact. Every time I call Alicia, she don't answer. I went by her condo and she wasn't there. I asked her friends where were she but they seem to have no clue and goin through all this is really startin' to piss me off. The only conclusion that I came to is that she's cheatin' on me. Cause she keeps being so secretive and never picking up her phone, like what else am I'm suppose to think. 

She can't be cheatin' on me because she knows that I'll never get over it. If she ever felt anything between us then se wouldn't  want to hurt me like that. I'm really losing it. I can't think straight because of her. Normally I'm the one out cheatin', I guess karma is a bitch but I love her anyway. 

If my heart gets broken then how am I'm pose to ever love again and I'm talking but that can't live without you because I don't want to kind of love. See stuff like this is why I hate giving my heart out, this is also why I can't trust people because I'm so paranoid that they're really out to get me, and I may be wrong but instinct never lies and my instinct is screaming that she's cheatin' or doing something she ain't got no business. 

Alicia come barging through the door with bags all from Victoria Secret. She out of breath so I know she's been doing a lot of walking. As I was looking at those bags the thought of her wearing those for someone else flooded into my mind uncontrolably and no matter how much I try I can't get rid of the thought.

"Where you been?" I asked in a low tone not moving my eyes off her.

"Out shopping....And why it's so dark in here?" I ignored her question as she was turning on the lights

"Who you shoppin' for?" That question took her by surprise and I knew then that I caught her in the moment. "Is it August?" I said still lookin' at her dead in the eyes waiting for a reaction. She didn't make one sound, really she didn't have to because I knew the answer.

"I-I....uh...n-no." she said trpping over her own words.

"So now you can't talk." I felt the anger and adrenaline run through my vains. I can't believe she used me. I knew she could tell I was raging inside because her whole expression changed.

"C-Chris calm down. It's not what you think I-..." I cut her off.

"Well what is it then, huh? You think I don't about you asking Trey to help you get August back aka yo punk ass nigga!!" I stood up and went towards her backing her up to the wall until there was no where else to go.

"Chris......I'm s-sorry. I didn't mean-...."

"You didn't mean what!!! How you gonna stand here and say you sorry! Sorry for what Licia?! You sorry for leading me on. Sorry that my daughter loves you. Huh? Or are you sorry because you just like those other sorry ass hoes you be with!!" She was crying at my words but I couldn't stop because I was hurt too and for what. If she wanted to get back with Aug why didn't she just come to me and break my heart one on one, atleast that way it she was being honest with me. 

Why she have to get my friend invovle with that mess. I hate what she's become. When we were in L.A she wasn't like this at all. The one important thing that really attracted me to her was her honesty and personality but now it's like I don't even know who she is anymore. I want Alicia back not this image of her I'm looking at. This Alicia only piss me off but I still love her.

"Chris I love him-"

"So you don't love me?"I cut off again.

"Of course I love You."

"So why Alicia?"

"I didn't want to hurt you."

"But you did Alicia!! You don't love me!!!" Before I knew my hand was bald into a fist, it flew then it came down cutting through the air until it collided on to a fragile but hard sturcture of a woman. After my actions I quickly opened my eyes to see the ugly truth and just as I feared she was laying on the floor covered in tears holding her face. 

WHAT HAVE I DONE?????????????