Give Me A Reason

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Alicia Pov

He think he fucking slick. I saw him with my own eyes go past Slim's driveway. He did it because I was there. What a asshole! I'm so mad I don't know what to do with myself. I know he hiding something and I'm gonna figure it out.

I left Slim's house and went home but before I went in the condo complex, I wanted to check and see if August was at the hotel. So I went to the front deal and asked if he had a resivation.

The last said yes and have me the room number. On my way up to the room I was thinking bout all the things that could possibly happen. I wanted to be ready for anything.

I got on the hall and as I approached the room, I started to faint sounds. As I got closer I recognized it as moans. I thought that maybe it was coming from one of the other rooms so I proceeded slowly.

When I reached the door, I noticed that the faint moans were coming from this room. I eased the door open step by step. Once I was inside the sounds grew louder. I really hope that this ain't August even though I feared the answer.

When I reached the living room my heart fell. I indeed saw what I was fearing to see. August and this girl was having sex on the floor right in front of me and there was nothing I could do. I couldn't move or blink. I just stood there in gaze until the sound of her screaming his name brought me back to my senses.

"How could you!!!" I screamed with tears flooding my face. I know I startled them because they both jump.

I couldn't take the humiliation no more so I turned and ran for my life. August voice screaming my name, telling me to wait followed me home.

I shut and locked my door, falling to the floor crying. I layed there in my own tears.

Why!? Why did he have to do this to me? Why weren't I good enough? Did I lead him to cheat? Did I not love and cared for him as a girlfriend should? What was the problem and why did I have to get hurt? I don't ever want to see him again! I knew it! I knew he couldn't be faithful even though I hoped he could. I feel I have no more reasons to go on. I'm tired of being used and abused by lies.

Loud knocks on my door and August's voice brought me from my thoughts.

"Alicia!!!" He pleaded banging on the door. I didn't want to talk to him but I had to get some answers.

"What do you want from me!" I yelled back.

"Your forgiveness baby!" I could hear the tears in his voice.

"Give me a reason to even think about forgiving you!" Anger started to bubble up inside me.

"I love you Alicia. I'm in love with you and I don't want something stupid like this to ruin us."

"I can't trust you and in a relationship if you don't have trust then what exactly do you have." I said getting more sad.

"Alicia we can work on trust."

"No! You need to work on your infidelity issues before you as even try to fix what we use to have." I listened to myself as I sounded so bitter.

"Alic-" I cut him off before he could even begin to finish.

"Just leave! I don't wanna deal with this or you right now. Go be with that girl." I sat and listen to him walk away. Even though I ment what I said I still wanted him. Normally when I feel like this I need him to hold me but that's not gonna happen.

This is how it feels to be love lost.

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I hope y'all enjoy. It did been my heart writing this. Stick around for the nxt chapter. Excuse any mistakes.

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